love... what is the meaning of love...

what does it mean to be in love... what does it mean to love another person... what does it mean to care??

well.. i dunno, and honestly, i dun really care... what is the point of commiting to a relationship espacially in today's society of non-descript and incredible instability. what is the meaning of life... for the first time on my blog, i shall reveal the true meaning of lavidas, and what it means to be a follower of the lavidas. To be a lavidian is more than a calling, more than a destiny, it has to be a burning passion, an obsession. I am obsessed with the lavidas... life... as we know it... life as we experience is simple that... life... why do different things happen to different people? 'cos it's life... ppl are inherently different and possess a nuance which gently permeates all the facets of life. Relationships... career... studies... society... friends... family... ambtions.. love... they are all but invidual components of the whole package, which is you. You represent the fullness of your life... you are the lavidas... you possess the lavidas... but how do you be a true lavidian... by realising yourself, accepting yourself, and perpetuating yourself towards the future. you are what you make of yourself. opportunities present themselves occassionally... a lavidian identifies and maximises them.

life is not perfect. nothing is. but to live the lavidas life, you have to understand the concept of being in lavidas... you need to know what you want, and pursue it. if you fail, you move on... that is the way of the lavidas.. to not allow setbacks/obstacles to come between you and your dream. A lavidian is a fighter, a noble pursuer of dreams, a representation of an undying love... the element of the lavidas is fire... fire... the source of passion... a passionate life... that is the path i have chosen... to walk down a hidden trek engulfed in the blanket of the dark, arms in front of me, unsure of whether it is a tree or a cliff in front of me... but i know one thing... life should not be different shades of grey, but a cacophony of colours... red, blue, green, yellow... i live a colourful life... i do what i think is fun. but what is fun? fun is to be happy wif yaself and do what makes you happy. that is true living.

dreams do no make one great, but they make one more passionate. everybody wants a passionate lover... employers want a passionate employee... i want... a passionate life... a life dedicated to whatever it is that i desire. Of course... a lavidan will accept whatever consequences their actions result in... but it will not stop them. you cannot begrudge a lavidian their life. Lavidians are few and far between in the conforming world of today as people seek mediocrity and comfort over indulgement and happiness... why be content when you can be happy. why live averagely when you can live outrageously?

Red - the colour of my passions...
Blue - the colour of the inner peace...
Green - the dazzling sight of continual growth...
Purple - the realisation of royal bloodline...
Gold - the sun that brings forth life...

colours... we can't live without them, but yet, many of us suffer from pathetically grey lives... why? 'cos we do not pursue passions... we do not have the courage to try to live brilliant lives... we do not understand the lavidian code... the lavidas.

join me, all you lavidians out there... lavidians everywhere unite!!!!

i am the ultimate lavidian...

yest struggled with tcp threading client/server design. then after work, got home, watched a bit of holland v, then badminton. after that i walked back from albert park... i think i've caught a chill from it.

oh well... what's new? things are coming along, am still XIANX... i need my holidays soon... i wanna go somewhere and enjoy life...

what else to say? i'm at work... which is exciting, but i want more... then again, we are humans... we'll always want more.

looking forward to tonite's good dinner... i think i'll start my dinners from next wk...

i am the ultimate lavidian

It's been 4 days...

Saturday... the BBQ at AA's.. was great.. made sambal sting ray.. SUPERBLY delish... my mouth is still watering from the sensual flavours and the cacophony of fragrances. my mind drifts beyond the expense... savouring the individual sticks of satay, generously coated with absolutely stunning peanut sauce... i even had to turn down and invitation to the anime fest.. JUST for this... haha... then we slacked... and um.. i watched 20 eps of Holland V within 4.5 hrs...

Next morn went to Hopson's Bay... then we um... went to city for lunch wif 'em, due to some complications, ended up walking around the city a bit wif um.. SA... then ended up at DD's place where they had a Korean themed dinner - with the exception of a roast lamb... chatted, and Bridged... been a long time... then met up with Belldy, Kiffy, Saz, and went to Le Churrios for THE BEST churrios with THE SMOOTHEST chocolates... WOW.. that will be a sensation my palate will be longing for for a very very long time...

then yest, worked... then got home... and another 20 eps of Holland V. VERY addictive, but the characters are OH so beautiful, almost as if they were all individually hand sculptured and designed by Leonardo or something... they were so real... and diverse...

Today... work... later, dinner with ahZi, then gonna do a clearance.. i need to clean my room... and then after that i need to start planning for some trips.. i wanna travel somewhere...

am feeling fatigued... wish i had more holidays.. but oh well... haha... at least i still get my time off...

life the last few days is... average... and i'm still praying for a church... as for now... i think i'd better get back to work... ciao peeps...

i am the ultimate lavidian.

The Real Life...

Reality, perspection, truth are all just relative... realise how reality is just realy relative... haha... but it's true, you can't deny it...

i quote from a conversation yesterday...

Dorothy: "Which school did you go to? Boarding school?"

Barbie: "No.. not boarding school..."

Dorothy: "Then what? go and come back, go and come back school??"

Me and Lenny: *looking absolutely stunned in shock and amusement.

Now, that was farnie.

Am @ work. today is friday... i feel like sleeping... wkend there's a bbq at DoubleA's, then @ nite, gonna try to get some studying done... *dunno why i even bother... i mean... why study when you can play? i can't fiogure it out but it has somethign to do with me being lazy... it's like... laziness is my motivation for working hard, as oxymoronic as it may sound... it does have it's truths.

i have no clue... but i know one thing... I have a friend... my sweet little pink flying elephant... and i'm going to write a song about it! hehe...

nothing much to say at this point of time... i just wanna go home and sleep... haaa...

and rest for the weekend... i have a feeling something special is going to happen...

hold me close... hold me tight... feel my arms with your warmth...

i am the ultimate lavidian

delphi multi-system project - that's what i'm working on rite now at work. Interesting, intriguing o say the least... am waiting for Dorothy and her friend Barbie to cook dinner as Barbie's bf Lenny is sitting there presumably surfing the internet.

On the way to work today i thought of an interesting song concept... something about my friend, a sweet little small flying elephant. Hmm.. speaks much for my sanity... haha... badminton yest was swell... good games.. relatively, and the dinner with the duck was sumptuous... absolutely... YUMMILICIOUS... WHEE!!! she says she's hot, *A says B is hot... but i honestly dun think so... i think B is just average, dunno why guys all go crazee over her... hah... maybe those guys are just sad cases of small egos and patheticness... i look at her and wonder... and feel absolutely nothign.. nothing in either of the scales...

On another note, Friday is coming here... TGIF!!! Whee-hoo... can't wait... to be able to do NOTHIN again.. i need a break... Xindy and I sorta came up with a plan... to go camping... real camping where you wear the same clothes, dun shower and just smell each other's stench (or in my case... my sweet sexy pheromes). If anything, that'll be in at least 3 or 4 wks time... depending on the currency of the situation.

I am broke. Officially... i may be struggling to get through this month due to the inability to pay rent using credit... BAH to the agents, and BAH to the financial institutions... BAH to you all... prison break 5... WHOA... haha... who would have thought the silo they are looking for is NO LONGER THERE... HAHA... If you haven't seen it, too bad... ;)... i know... you wanna kill me... oh whatever...

i think i'm like ultimate crappy too... just now, i was askin like...

uL : "What temperature do you wanna set the oven?"

Dorothy: "Dunno" (turns to Barbie)

uL: "High or Low?"

Barbie: "High"

uL: (looks straight at Barbie...) "Hi, how are you?"

BWAHAHAAAA...

after that i was like wtf... am i really that crappy... oh well... after all...

i am the ultimate lavidian

Today is the middle of the week...

Val cancelled din yest... leaving me to set up xna and test snubby's game framework, was kewl... then watched prison break s2e5... can it get any better? hah... Did some laundry... then watched some you tube... there is some full of crap stuff in there...

gonna leave work at 5pm, then head to pac house for duck wif fam + fam friends. gonna bring Xindy to badminton after that... i think i left my bible at the campsite... hope they found it. also, i think i'm getting bored again... haa... need more inspiration perhaps, or am i just deliberately nondescript?

Tonite, hope to complete the installation of my studio... then i can start phase 3 asap... thought i was 1 wk early, but now i'm actually 1 wk behind...

i'm tired...

i am the ultimate lavidian

SIAM...

Shit It's Already Monday...

(This was written yesterday)

woke up, and felt like going back to bed... head was slightly aching... but now am feeling alrite... lips are still feeling a bit weird… is it an allergy? Maybe… to what? Nobody knows… well, maybe this is my thorn in my flesh…

Have been pondering over what I call socio-relational dynamics… or SRDs… SRDs define communal theory as well as attraction theory. Communal theory describes the tendency for a commune of individuals to group into communal groups of lowest standard deviations. Attraction theory describes the innate nature of individuals to seek out other individuals of high attraction factor. SRD studies identifies the predominant behavioural traits and roles in a communal group, analyzing motivations and reasons behind each action.

Aniways… back to my intentions… I fully intend to complete either one of my song expos *I believe* or *Hold me close* by this week… it has been dragging on, and new inspirations keep coming in… I am currently not happy with the lyrical component in *I believe*. But I am positive it’ll be sorted out soon. After these two pieces, I’m going to experiment with re-compositing *eternal sunshine* with a full blown instrumental group…

(Now, this is written today)

Yesterday’s mee goreng was expensive (bell bought everything from safeway), and was not fantastically tasty (I screwed up). But was a good time to catch up wif them… went to bed… woke up at 330 am… and talked to Xindy, shared with her the lavidian theology, and then watched a bit of some stoopid teen-movie…

Health is recovering, but lips still dunno… Lord.. WHY ME? Why gimme such a thorn? Doesn’t matter… Life goes on. Me waking at 330 am was a weird thingy… as I never wake at that hour… then suddenly I did, and Xindy needed to talk to someone… it’s how do you say it, divine intervention… just like now. Tonite having dinner wif Val… not sure what to do yet… hee… I can’t wait for tomorrow… dinner at pacific house… READ: DUCK!… then badminton… and then… rest…

Thursday will be my study time… I think I wanna complete my assignment asap... Val just msged me to CANCEL… oh well.. I’ll just go home and do laundry, cook a bit, and get some rest.. still slightly sick… but recovering well. I wanna compose more songs too… haa...

i am the ultimate lavidian

camp. am back.

am tired. slept. going to sleep more. am feeling a tingling sensation in the throat region... must have overexerted slightly. the 2 night 2 day camp was very swell, and i got a lot out of it... how much? HEAPS.

1. realised that my kewlness was in fact not gone. i was still as kewl as ever, if not kewler. it's just that i have been around boring ppl too much that even my kewl self got so bored.

2. realised that my current spiritual disharmony was due to the lack of a home church.

3. realised that my time in SSCOC is officially at an end and that i will need new pastures.

4. realised that i am STILL the ultimate lavidian.

5. realised that i can play volleyball.

6. realised that i do still have a heart to serve.

7. realised that God will always have his way. regardless.

and above all... i like the ppl there... the ppl are mostly decently interesting, with relatively exciting personalities, unlike the monotonous straights that i have been getting to know. talking to him helped me realised that this may be the place that i settle my invaluable self. the girls? a coupla decent ones, and there were a coupla that did catch my eye. however, i am picky... and will not settle for only looks - looks are insufficient. she must be kewl. kewl girls are hard to find. with most being boring and unexceptional. am still uncertain whether any of them are interesting enuf... we'll find out in time, although i was indeed flattered to have received a decent amount of IOIs. Unsurprising though, considering the exceptionally brilliant personality that i have, haha... makes everybody else pale in comparison.

Guys? amazingly, the guys were swell... they were friendly... methinks that they R kewl... haha.. and i dun say this about guys often...

What were the key experiences? Let's see the volleyball game 5 on 5... we won 2-1... haha... and the trampoline and *popcorn* a cool game... where a person curls up into a ball, and another person jumps on the trampoline bouncing the person trying to get the person to uncurl.

would like so say more, but my beauty sleep calls out to me... ciao....

i am the ultimate lavidian

brain is almost back to normal.. body still slightly weak, but recovering... i just watched my um.. 2004 cooking video i think.. going to try to edit.. gosh.. i was SOO full of crap... laughed my head off.. totally insane.. was i ever that kewl.. gosh, if i was half as kewl as i was then, i think i'm still pretty darn kewl.. i just need to keep pushing the correct buttons and keep my mind focused on the multiple facets. i do have multiple facets, and that is what makes me supremely unique... a balloon full of ideas... and an uncanny ability to get things done (if i want it done badly enuf)...

so yeah.. i am the JL.. forever and ever more...

Lavidas forever more...

i am the ultimate lavidian

i am back at work,

i am still not back at health,

i lurve my job, but i hate working,

brain is officially still listed under mulsh.

Still feeling the effects of the weather... am on asprin and paracetamol, but throat still hurts like crazee... no kissing... :( ...

yest was rather productive... removed the 2x60GB HDDs from Melissa, and installed a 160GB + 250GB pair... now she's a kick ass vid editing machine (still needs new EVERYTHING). Captured vids from K&S, skiing and some other random stuff. Going to go through my tapes... i vaguely remember recording a cooking video... i think i'll start editing this... 'cos i feel like it, hehe... lavidas! once again, it will be a gameless machine... no time or energy for games now... too much creativity output required, but insufficient input... need INPUT...

i really wanna record a music video.. but taht means that i'll need a person to film me... and i dun trust anybody to film me at this point of time... hmm

in process of clearing out my old shit from my old HDDs.. came across some interesting scripts i wrote... rather interesting... i did have lotsa ideas... looked through my old blog too... founda VERY interesting entry...

Thursday, September 16 2004 11:54:20
Hmm... lotsa ideas for life

Idea 1 : Go to Classes consistently

Idea 2 : Study

Idea 3 : Forget Ideas 1, 2, they are stupid.

Now, isn't that so true? haha...

Oh well.. gotta get back to work.... ciao now...

i am the ultimate lavidian

i know the answer to why i've been feeling rather crappy, and my brain so mulshy... I am sick... called in to pull a sickie, and the office lady was like... "I think you're the one that brought in the virus that knocked myself and mario out..." and i'm like "WTF? Me? but i only recently gave in to the battle... perhaps i was indeed down with somethign but my lavidian personality just refused to give up.

yesterday's asam laksa was good... considering i had sugar and tumeric, but FORGOT TO PUT THEM BOTH IN!!! what an idiot... still... it tasted nice. I think i am gifted with the skill of creation... creating gourmet delights as well as creative expressions. My throat hurts now - no more singing :(.

Maybe... maybe it's the clarinet... i am allergic to my BLACK STICK... maybe i'm allergic to girls? or perhaps just allergic to myself... haha...

anwiays, back to the dinner... was a sweet one, with Dorothy, Liz and Sam. caught up, and discovered that Sam lives just next door... literally... was nice... and they were not so noisy as my other bunches... so was rather swell... next dinner is on monday... Belldy x2 + Charissa / Bob + Dorothy + Me + Maybe One more? Hmm.. gotta decide who that maybe one more is... still have time... whatever the case.. it'll be a sweet-sour conglomeration of indonesian and western flavours of a slightly viscous consistancy Mee Goreng.. yummy, i'm drooling now... SERIOUSLY! So who will be the lucky one? dunno... but the focal point of that dinner will be the starting of a musical group - of which i may play a pivotal driving role IF the union authorizes it. ultimate lavidian, Directory Advisor, Noname Music Group, Melbourne Uni...

is is 1215 and i'm lying in bed with a throbbing head and an aching throat... i feel like crap, literally... can't play bad later - dun wanna aggrevate anything. Sam is cooking curry 2nite... yummy... but probably only half the standard of a lavidian curry.... OOOOH that reminds me... RENDANG!!!! that'll be after my mee goreng... the next dish after.... Who else will be lucky to receive my gifts of joy prepared by my talented phalanges? i wanna go to work, but i fear i can't concentrate... and i've already slept for ALMOST 12 hours... gosh.. and i still feel like sleeping... Now i know how Lil feels... poor thing, lil, get well soon.

Now, let's delve into some lavidian theology... I am a guy... i like girls... but girls are BORING... seriously... after my month of analysis, i realised that girls are BORING... but wait... guys are too (except me, of course)... what happened to dreams? what happened to goals? why to ppl nowadays only want to climb the corporate ladder to success? 'cos they are STOOPID? or maybe that's cause society has brainwashed us to believing that professional success begats happiness? I am happy... although my illness unables me to appear more so, but i am happy (7.6/10)... fine, i'm generally happy... haha... to get to the holy grail of happiness, i need 3 things... a new church FAST, to meet just 1 really interesting girl (like i said girls are BORING, but i'm sure there's one jewel hidden somewhere, and I dun even need to chase her or get her... just need 1 interesting person to inspire more creativity within)... what else... um, more time to embrace passions... currently, my tight schedule makes it impossible to take time out and relax... still, i shall persevere... you know what, i feel like sleeping AGAIN...

NO... before i go a quick recipe of the assam laksa i made...

Noodles
White or Yellow thick noodles to your fancy.. boil as much as you need.

The Magical Assam Laksa
Important ingredients are
1. Tamarind paste
2. Lemongrass
3. galangal
4. lots of onions / shallots
5. turmeric
6. sugar, salt
7. mint leaves
8.lime leaves
9. tuna
10.pineapples
11. cucumber
12.balachan
13. shrimps

Step 1 Dice and grind 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,12,13 and add to a boiling mixture... the most important part of assam laksa is the tamarind... that's the base of the stock... the correct way to boil tamarind is to soak the tamarind paste in hot water then use the hot water... the lazy way ( hot i did it) is to throw the tamarind directly into the pot. The lemongrass and galangal and the leaves have to be well grounded, or chopped up and thrown into a fish bag.

For those who dunno, a fish bag is a bag in which you put in fish bones to boil to make fish stock, i use it to boil spices and retrieve flavours while keeping the hard non-edibles out of the main soup.

Step 2.
when the soup thingy boils, add in tuna... salt and sugar to taste, and add more tamarind to increase sourness...

Step 3. when done, serve noodles in a bowl and pour assam laksa over it. put chopped mint leaves, cucumbers and pineapples to garnish.

Step 4. Make sure you are NOT an idiot and forget any ingredients... there are more ingredients like ginger flower... but i can't find in melbourne... :(

Oh well... it was still nice...

I feel groggy...

haha... my heart longs, it pines, it finds...

i go to sleep...

i miss you... you know who you are... if you dun think you're it... that means you're not it...


i am the ultimate lavidian.

whatta life...

Sunbury was freeezing.. i literally could NOT get up on monday morning... 'cos it was just too freezing. dad had to switch on the heater before i could even manage to poke a limb out of the blanket. I'm feeling nauseous now... been shivering, despite taking hot drinks, and my colleagues telling me that it's not particularly cold today... i do remember watching a movie with doris last nite, and then i totally dozed off... which is weird, considering i hardly do that... hmm... i truly must be sick.

Yest had dinner wif Kiffy... mexican... fantastic food... inspired to cook teh followign dishes... my signature Char Koey Teow, Mee Goreng, Tang Yuen, Roti, salmone pasta... Tonite i'm doing assam laksa.. and i dun have lime... hmm... do i really need it? no... i'll be fine... *although i feel like crap today... seriously... i think i have to call a sickie tomorrow, hmm...

Am seriously looking forward to dinner... am very intrigued how i'm going to whip up a kick-arse assam laksa, clear my room in a very limited time... *tick tock*... i wanna go home and sleep...

work was kewl.. we played pirates at lunch time today... 5 of us took over the convention room and started fighting and grabbing treasure... was fun... gosh i want more boats...

aniways, gotta go for now... got work to do and a dinner to meditate on...

ciao...

i am the ultimate lavidian

i am in sunbury.

the wk ended off in a blast... with the recording of Songalapatee, the harmornic composition of "I believe"... had a SUPER DUPER rest on sat... body is now refreshed, and brain no longer mulsh.. hhaa...

Saturday... me, brian, yx, les went to play indoor soccer... les was on fire... and i had 2 good chances, but missed :-( i guess me needs to train a bit more... hha...a Man Utd is on a roll!!! 4 wins in 4... you can't get better than that! after that we had lunch, and i went home to rest.. gosh, i was soo brain mulshed... horrendous... but now, brain is back to normal... which is kewl.

today, dad came by, we hung out a bit, bought groceries, then i went back to sunbury. is FREEZING here... gosh, i miss my nice warm *bed-recording studio... in vic mart, we bought 7.2kg of seasoned lamb ribs for $10... SUPER DUPER cheap... and superduper delactabilishious!! had a nap...

my din tomorrow cancelled on me... and i'm NOT thrilled at all... if you wanna cancel at least gime a coupla days to organise something else... i am NOT thrilled... aniways, i'll be having dinner with kat.. methinks - mexicano... i've got a craving...

tomorrow i'll have to purchase the ingredients for the assam laksa... :) i think it'l be swell... lalala... c'est la vie. i'm starting to drool just thinking about it... methinks i'll add a twinge of mint and perhaps thyme? it'll be interesting...

then weds... badminton... then thurs... i think i should rest... but maybe pam...
hmmm... friday is gonna be a killer... lelele... going for the city life youth camp...

aniways, i gtg... will report back,

but whatever the case,

i am the ultimate lavidian

The noblest pleasure is the joy of understanding - Leonardo da Vinci

I do not understand... that it mean that i am not experiencing pleasure?

He was a genius, totally eccentric, but a genius non-the less... the following 2 works are his best... the Vitruvian Man, and the Mona Lisa... each demonstrating different essences within himself... and varying concepts of perpetualization. What is perpetualization?? It is the perpetual realization of being, of life around you.

Vitruvius was a Roman architect, who studied the proportions of the human body, and the Vitruvian man was but a study of this. In the included picture, da Vinci writes his notes about his analysis on the human form in mirror writing. Symbolic? Absolutely... just like the mathematical irrational golden proportional number phi, known by Renaissance artists as the 'Divine Proportion'. Another Leonardo (Another coincidence?), Leonardo Fibonacci determined that the ratio of two successive numbers in the Fibonacci series (0,1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34...) approximates this phi. It also converges on phi for greater iterations in the series... phi is approximately 1.618033988749895.

So basically, we have 2 Leonardos analysing this golden number... what is the significance of this? let's see.. phi is a number that crops up in many places in art, music, etc... Claude Debussy used it explicitly in his music, and Le Corbusier in his architecture. Also, it is possible the the Greek Parthenon, the Great Pyramid of Khufu and EVEN the Mona Lisa were influenced by this divine proportion. Pictures or even rectangles were proved to be more pleasing if they utilise this golden ratio, demonstrated by psychological tests performed by Gustav Fechner in the 19th century.

FACT or FICTION??

i leave it up to you to decide... why is Mona Lisa considered one of the best paintings ever? the use of golden ratios perhaps... This ratio is embodied within nature, seen as beauty and organisation within existance... the basic proof of a higher existance... we were made... this is but the evidenciary proof.

"I am inspired, and will continute my journey of discovery... i am the ultimate lavidian" - ultimateLavidian

define: mess... the state my mind is in...

cause: too much happening in the last few days... brain's a mulsh... i need a BREAK!! did i ever expect things to heat up so quickly? NO! but then again, why am i complaining? haaa.... i have no clue... i have resigned to the fact that

1. i am crazee
2. i am mad
3. i am insane
4. i am eccentric

haha... but i love myself... i look around at all the boring ppl out there... and thank God for the gift of being me... i would never ever want to be somebody else... why would i wanna be less than who i am now? sometimes i really envy others... they get to know someone like me... it's not fair... why can't i meet somebody like me? why can't i have the priveldge of being friends with a kewl person *** i think i'm going nutz...

which is a good thing... most of the most creative artists out there are insane or at least eccentric... and ppl have confirmed that i am at least 3 out of the 4, so... i guess i'm close to it, right? i'm told that insanity and pure genius are located on the same quadrant... i just realised taht i have a deadline this sunday... *baka... what else is there????? ime is clicking away... i can't wait for my holiday... :( then i can meet my sg chix and my my chix... ahhh... i am going crazee again... i need to CUT DOWN! as activities are starting to drain my energies... my delicate brain needs cultivation not over invigoration.. which is what is currently happening....

i really should sleep.. tomorrow is a big day... i'm exhausted, but my brain can't stop... maybe i need professional help... maybe i need more than that... hmm, oh well...

i know what i need... i need time out!!!! hehe...

well, i know for sure i'll get the next 7 hours ALL TO MYSELF... and whoever i dream about... yes, it could be you for all you know... so... yeah... ciao babe....

i am the ultimate lavidian

a quick update... yest had a great dinner... great food... and enuf humour to last me an eternity... Kiffy, Rox and En came over for bakuteh... and we had a coupla laughs. then dropped off some at red's, along wif other stuff... did a drive around thingy and then headed home for the one thing i love most in the world... sleep... Shakespeare does say it best, "Sleep is nature's second course," and for all your literary idiots out there... the second course refers to the main course, with the first being the entree. Hence, what he's saying is that sleep is the most important part of a person's life... a theory which i absolutely agree and adhere to. Sleep... with which you have less time for other things, without which you have less energy for other things... hmm...

aniways, a quick update on the status of my studio. More detailed information to be included maybe in the next coupla days... like i said... maybe.

my studio
Microphone system set up and is ready for recording... am considering getting a pre-amp... hmm...
Still waiting for new keyboard stock to come in, so i can get my keyboard from the shop and start recording! whee!
Clarinet recording will be tested tonite - going to record some kewl funky bendy stuff...
Alto sax in process of acquiring.
hmm... need to set up my video cam too... so it'll be the ultimate studio... AV recording studio...

is it worth it? oh yeah... DUH!#@@

haha... and yest bumped into sally and lynn... haha... two hot chix... the ironic syncapation is that as i start losing interest in girls, more and more keep popping up... what can i say? life is such... i'm already in the process of planning my next um... phase 3 may be inititialised b4 the 2 wks is up... i'm on fire...

'cos...

i am the ultimate lavidian

TIME FLIES...

I have been so insanely bz that i have had no time to update this blog... maybe i should consider cancelling it... nah... i'll persevere...

Last week in perspective... thurs cooked kiwi infused seared chicken and condensed milk brocolli + mushrooms... no mood to give recipe details now.. haha...

then there was thurs, and a mental overload... there was a major bug at work that i had to fix - however, i had a dinner planned... saz, rach, winnie and sister came over... unfortunately... after that, i had to plough through my work - finished at around 330 am, but at least ironed out the bug. next day, we delivered and presented dev to client, who seemed pleased, which was good.

friday nite... shopping!!! haha... bought a mike stand for my mike (now, my room looks like a real studio)... and ordered a Yamaha keyboard. pretty pricey... but i am, therefore i get what i want (within reason). Set up the mike... slacked, and rested... brain was in a gruelish state. saturday, woke up EARLY at 8am... went to play futsal... was swell... despite my slip and fall, brining the world crashing down on top of me... really felt the repercussions on the body after that, but still, haha... FUTSAL...

Am considering to join a particular church camp in 2 wks...

After futsal, went to buy $60 worth of meat... for my cooking endeavours... brain is mulsh at this point, no energy left... need to recuperate...

Then, Mich's bdae - went to Dragon Boat... great food, great ppl, swell time. Then, cell... um... yah... there is a possibility that could happen... a dire distinctive possibility.. but we'll see... am i too wild to lead a christian group? perhaps... but oh well...

then nite... cammie's kidnapping b-dae surprise... absolutely stunning... they did a great job of planning it... with fluffy kinky handcuffs, blindfold and all... she was soo um... inriguing... haha... ended up at carlton gardens with sweet candles on the floor - absolutely stunning... but still, a rather standard surprise... I still dun understand... why celebrate 1 year closer to death?

aniways... got my blades back, rested... sunday, went to AOG with sis... was swell... was about 40 days - ministry. i started thinking about my own ministry, and how i had lost my focus... my drive... i need a new church.... and i need it soon!! maybe that camp will be a good idea for me to discover an area i can impact... after all i am the lavidian... where else can you find one such as me?

lunch was with Kiffy, Belldy and Roxy. Sucky food, but at least i'm still alive. then bumped into Jamie L., had coffee, talked about his Aussie Army experience... Intriguing... and encouraging in a certain way. Bought some stuff at asian groceries, walked home, and napped ( my neck was still hurting like crazeee). Slept and slept... then Rach came to borrow my camera... gave her a quickie lesson - hope she doesn't fumble under the pressure in europe (3wks among some of the most classical architectures and brilliance)... how i wish i went too... *dreamy look* --- OKIE... back to reality... i have a dream.. i will pursue... i can't wait for my keyboard to arrive... then i'll rerecord eternal sunshine, and all my other songs... before embarking on a new set of songs... i wanna vid. them up too... but how? need inspiration... still slightly lacking, last wk due to occurances, insp level dropped by 7% to 78%... need to keep pushing it upupupup!!

then vid. rach doing some rather stoopid stuff... how stoopid? um... abso-stunning-lutely... how stoopid can a person get? haha... lavidian extremity... intrepid intrigue.

she left. i started work on the dinner today ... then realised i was still LACKIGN in both equipment and ingredients... haha... but still started the initial cooking process... BAKUTEH.. simple, easy, but then again.. i'm super lz now... no NRG for anything at all... need rest... bad... hmm... super lz 'coz i'm super bz? so no mood / NRG for anythign else...

still... Tim is leaving back to MY for a while... gonna miss that guy... but in a month he'll be back, and we'll attempt to launch a pokernite... made fish pasta for dinner yest... started practicing my old songs again... wow... deja vu... the feeling of old, the rendezvous with memory lane... my new conceptual songs are nice... but i've been unable to continue after the first verse...

today... work is alrite, am still feeling quesy... am wondering... what if what could be is? then i realise what is is simply a manifestation of thoughts in actions.

Another random thought - relationships - To get who you want, is to be who you want to want you to be. hmm...

am i blabbering so much that NOBODY understands... hahaa... too bad then...


i am the ultimate lavidian