define: mess... the state my mind is in...

cause: too much happening in the last few days... brain's a mulsh... i need a BREAK!! did i ever expect things to heat up so quickly? NO! but then again, why am i complaining? haaa.... i have no clue... i have resigned to the fact that

1. i am crazee
2. i am mad
3. i am insane
4. i am eccentric

haha... but i love myself... i look around at all the boring ppl out there... and thank God for the gift of being me... i would never ever want to be somebody else... why would i wanna be less than who i am now? sometimes i really envy others... they get to know someone like me... it's not fair... why can't i meet somebody like me? why can't i have the priveldge of being friends with a kewl person *** i think i'm going nutz...

which is a good thing... most of the most creative artists out there are insane or at least eccentric... and ppl have confirmed that i am at least 3 out of the 4, so... i guess i'm close to it, right? i'm told that insanity and pure genius are located on the same quadrant... i just realised taht i have a deadline this sunday... *baka... what else is there????? ime is clicking away... i can't wait for my holiday... :( then i can meet my sg chix and my my chix... ahhh... i am going crazee again... i need to CUT DOWN! as activities are starting to drain my energies... my delicate brain needs cultivation not over invigoration.. which is what is currently happening....

i really should sleep.. tomorrow is a big day... i'm exhausted, but my brain can't stop... maybe i need professional help... maybe i need more than that... hmm, oh well...

i know what i need... i need time out!!!! hehe...

well, i know for sure i'll get the next 7 hours ALL TO MYSELF... and whoever i dream about... yes, it could be you for all you know... so... yeah... ciao babe....

i am the ultimate lavidian