A quick update... wkend was swell, on sat, visited ben and beth's life group, then met up wif dad, then tried to look at assignment, but was too busy playing wif the ds... i managed to hack it, haha... On sun, woke up, went for the lunch at aa's... was swell too... rather noisy, i must admit.. but then in the arvo, my brain suddenly shut... and i napped as dorothy drove back. next... rushing assignment... and monday, rushed assignment too...

Now, enuf about the boring stuff... back to what really matters... time... you need to spend time wif yourself... ppl nowadays spend time at work, wif ppl, in front of tv... but not with themselves... how can you understand yourself if you dun spend time wif yourself? Balance is and will always be the key to a satisfying and exciting life. I'm currently unable to maximise my experiences due to the huge chunk of projects on my hands now... and as i plow through them, i have to balance the amount of human-interaction as well as productivity. There is a finite amount of time to be divided among human-interaction and productivity. When you enjoy a cuppa wif a mate, that is time you no longer have to study for a test, or prepare for an assignment.

I choose to do further studies as I believe that the benefits will outweigh the costs. i choose to play my ds as the games inspire creativity. i choose to meet up with people who i want to. That is my life. I choose to undertake projects as i am me... am i crazee... i know i am... but it's all coming along...

one recent conversation i had was about commitment. is commitment good or bad... i was the sole supporter of 'bad' in a group where everybody was supporting 'good'. I believe that commitment to the right thing is good, whereas commitment to the wrong thing is bad. And since there is an overwhelming tendency for ppl to choose wrongly, most commitments are bad. Then again, considering the negatory predisposition for people to SUCK at commitment... ppl will give up a commitment for the stupidest reasons... due to other commitments, or just a lack of commital persistance. If you commit to a person, it may be good, but the tendency of a commital fallout is too rampant to ignore, 1 out of 2 marriages fail - READ:DIVORCE... a statistic in both USA and Australia. And this does not include statistics for cohabitation that fails, or seriosu relationships that fail.

Hence, I conclude, that no commitment is better than bad commitment. And even good commitment can fail. Hence, if good commitment can fail, good commitment is potentially bad, making ALL commitment potentially bad. So why commit?

Perhaps it is only through commitment that you get most out of life... the things that are worth more will cost more to acquire. there are more risks involved in more profitable ventures. "To love and to be loved in return" - this famous quote from Moulin Rouge examplifies this. It is talking about love... the deepest passions of humanity... but it does not say "To commit, and to be committed in return". I wonder why... (if you get the nuance, good on ya, if not... go read the blogs of some simple-minded bimbo talking about her mascara instead).

In summary... Commitment can be good, but is generally bad based on human tendency and predisposition.

i am the ultimate lavidian