Lavidian Chronicles

2007-11-12T12:08:00.001+11:00

In retrospect,

amazing flux and incoherent choices; these are but the only ways to fully explain my decision to stay on in melbourne. Being one of the biggest supporters of this great city, it hurts and pains me to finally sigh and resign myself to the truth that i managed to reject for so very long. sometimes, it tears you up when you realise the truth: especially when it shakes the core of your reality. So, after that 3 days of deliberation, the internal committee (IC) has passed a conditional verdict, with a review scheduled for my turning of 25. In appreciation, the following people are identified to have contributed to this process: VJ, CC, LC, CA, SS, JL, CL. These people, in no particular order have been magnificant in their dealing with the 3 day IC review process.

The main factors contributing to this unanimous committee ruling include in no particular order,
1. Resource Drain
2. Value Shift
3. Incongruent alignment

1. Resource Drain can be attributed to a continual decline in human resources over the last 4 years, with the most recent of the years constituting the greatest impact. With a huge de-migratory shift, the resources i garnered and nurtured over the last 8 years have dried up. Attempts to mine new resources have met with certain barriers: lack of concentration / purity / type / accessibility. Efforts in resource scouting are disproportional to resource acquisition, and the IC has released a order terminating all further resource acquisition projects with immediate effect.

Other resource drains are attributed to the increase of parasitic anomalies. These anomalies disguise themselves as resources, and appear valuable. However, when included into the resource pool, their parasitic nature becomes evident, and a resource leak occurs. In an attempt to seal this leak, a new review process is implemented to ensure resource value before any integration into resource pool occurs. IC rulings also include a parasite extermination order, which serves to maintain the value of the existing resource pool. The IC has also proposed a resource refining scheme to increase the value of existing resources. With this in mind, new ventures would be to increase the resource value of existing resources instead of identifying and harvesting new resources. This is in line with the new IC declaration.

2. Value shift involves a paradigm shift in value order. Due to changing market forces and the current economic shifts in demand/supply, in an attempt to increase competitive edge, the IC has proposed a new value system. Initial focus on 'pursuing happiness' in preference to 'professional development' no longer presents a viable opportunity cost, and the new IC directive will seek more well rounded professional development, in preference to other activities, such as badminton/roller blading/social events, etc. This is in preparation to achieve a superior position for 'Domination 2010'.

'Domination 2010' is still in the initial proposal stage, with the IC estimating a 20 Jan 2008 deadline for official release. This coincides with the 2007 end of year r&r trip, which would serve some perspective. 'Perspective' was one of the themes in Ratatouille, and I agree... perspective is one of the things that many of us do not understand, current perspective determines current values, and discounts prior values. 'Melbourne 2008' has been rescinded following the new proposed 'D2010' plan.

3. Incongruent alignment describes the existing condition of resource pool, mining and refining capacity, and the mismatch between existing resources and existing performance guidelines. There has been a consistent failure to meet production guidelines due to the resource drain described above. The value shift further increases the disparate between actual and required production. IC's recent internal audit and review of business values, systems processes and procedures has resulted in whole scale revamp of decision making variables. Existing coefficients have been modified to reflect a more sustainable rate of resource development, with 'D2010' the finale of the orchestral symphony. It will be exceptionally absolutely fantabulously LEGENDARY.

i AM the ULTIMATE LAVIDIAN; i am back with a VENGEANCE.

*PINK ELEPHANT: i'm living in this vicious world of vicious people, maybe i've become a vicious person myself...

2007-11-11T21:57:00.000+11:00

ladies and gents, cats and dogs... i have an announcement to make.

after recent developments throughout 2008, the committee has deliberated for 3 consecutive days, struggling through sleepless nights and finally reaching the decision that we have shunned for years... I am unable to reveal this decision, but i have happy to reveal to each individual. It is almost amazing, i feel the weight lifted up from my shoulders and i am now happy to announce that the lavidian is back on track. after losing his way in the cacophony of mediocrity... he will only RISE LIKE THE PHOENIX...

hey, humans... the uLavidian is BACK!!!!!!! watch out

2007-06-18T13:53:00.000+10:00

i am back again... seeing that my last post was over a month ago... there's a lot of updates.

there have been a couple of road trips - dandenongs, great ocean road, grampians with a series of individuals... great individuals... poker is starting to make an impression on my social scene. I wanna karaoke... there's one organised next sat. certain permutations have caused a vapid fluctuation in normalcy balance, just when i was starting to find the right balance between work and play... i am unable to specify the effector, but there are plans afoot to bring them under control. Spent even more $$ on upgrading my recording studio, had news that T was not returning to melbourne. *just today received news that it could still be a possibility. Furthered expansion of DTFC, passed my two masters modules... blah blah...

Roller blading - a way of life or just a fad? Crystal may be getting her own pair, and i'm trying to expand it. A total lack of inspiration is starting to affect personal productivity. Another chance meeting with a potentially similar individual may spark, and if things do... it will be FIREWORKS.

Not much more to report, i guess... there is one interesting thought... what if... what if... there was a way to ensure a consistently high level of motivation?

Tonight there is a DTFC WGM, and after taht i must try to finalise my 2 month overdue project. Est: 3 hrs of production time...

2007-05-14T13:54:00.000+10:00

once again, time drifts by, surely steadily,and unbeknownst to me... i lay there quietly, patiently,waiting for time to pass me by...however, the currents of time spares nothing, no one,and i am dragged from the past to the present,pushed from the present to the future.
go man utd, go Rooney, go Ronaldo! you guys ROX.

just finished a 8km breast cancer run yest... legs feel like melting, will i be able to conquer the half marathon like i did in 2005? perhaps.

i embrace the new challenges that are ahead... with temporal compression and mental rigours required to overcome.

time passes, things happen, events occur, people change... the one statement in 2002 that still holds true... a farce? or simply a facade of life that everybody ignores. to be who you want to be you have to do that which you don't want to. do the means matter less than the ends?

legs are sore from the onslaught of climate, weather, and physical lacking. still, i persevere... and strive... i will not let go... i will not falter. i am... the ultimate lavidian...

events of the last 2, 3, 4 weeks have pushed me into uncharted waters, and as i float like a cork out in the vastnesss of the blue, bobbing up and down, do i allow the currents to drift me to the great unknown? or do i stick my shivering body into the sea, and start swimming... with the knowledge that maybe... just maybe i may find dry land if i keep swimming.

i burst a couple of capilliaries during the run...

ok. back to more non-reflective stories...

i HATE studying. what???? i DETEST it... but i will do it. for the benefits will be pleasurable.
sunday - had the run thingy, then did lunch, then um... f1
saturday - miss saigon... absolutely a darl!
friday - sunbury to visit the old man

those are the highlights as i remember... of course there's the expansion of the lavidian regime, which will perpetuate into the lives of many...

decisions of yesteryears affect present circumstances... however, causality cannot be ignored, and action must be taken with intent.

i am the ultimate lavidian

2007-04-18T08:54:00.000+10:00

This is sooo important, i just had to make a post today...

NEWS FLASH!

For the last week i was on Telfast, an antihistamine with fexofenadine as the active ingredient. Telfast is known as Allegra in the US. The last week, its side effects caused all my chaos. for 8 days, i took one pill a day. By Friday and Saturday I started to feel weird. Sunday and Monday, my systems crashed... dizzy, nausaeus, depressed, and confused, i started wondering whether i need help. Yesterday's report of improved emotional condition was due to me stopping my pill popping on Monday. Since then, my emotions are back to normal.. HURRAH! and i realised that i am NOT in fact sufferign from neo-natal depression or PMS or middle age crisis or whatever not.

So, If I have in fact been behaving strangely, you know now the truth, and the truth will set you free...

i am back to 92% efficiency, which is GREAT news... 'cos i'm back on track!

look out world...
the ultimate lavidian is back!

2007-04-17T10:25:00.000+10:00

Recovery.

After a HUGE wkend the weeek before, i did not realise it, but it toook a CHUNK out of me... system-wide shutdown of most critical systems. Sunday + Monday represented a weird state of regression into a neofetal state. Weird. totally uncalled for, but life is such... coupled with a sudden detractment from reality, the subsequence consequence was a withdrawal. Withdrawal from life. however, my inbuilt anti-depression routines kicked in, and i embarked on a recovery process. although i have yet to ascertain the cause of this sudden mental psychosis, i believe it is directly correlated to the recent progression of events.

Event 1: failure to complete the rollerblading move to saturday.Event 2: sudden fragmentation of internal goal-driven processes.Event 3: a paradox loop that has brought internal processing to a dead halt.Event 4: collapse in social planning subsystems - need a rehaul.

The abovementioned 4 events were the primary causes of the system-wide shutdown. Since then, i've recovered to 48%, which is still relatively low compared to the pre-weekend high of 89%.

Umm.. update on past wk... let's see... badminton as usual on weds, friday i received an SOS from Saz to help her move, so we did that, wif red and Winnie... sat, had brekky wif Chloe, then groceries then picnic with the gang. The old gang with new members... i miss them... SOOO much... they are so sweet... to the extent of putting up with my ideosyncracies. hmm... oh well.. c'est la vie. after picnic, crashed their cell, then went to dinner at sofia's then um... hung out at carlton gardens wif Wes, Sarah and Sandy. Then i crashed. taht night... totally blew out.sunday - felt the extent of the shutdown... rested... then at night watched F1 Bahrain wif the sister... taht was swell. Monday - parma night, and discussions of exporting the DTFC to sydney.

then... crashed again.

today systems are up to 49% from a last night low of 23%.

Yes. I am on a rapid recovery. All things considered. i can expect a potential 69 to 75% by tonight.

i am the ultimate lavidian

2007-04-10T12:44:00.000+10:00

1.2.3.4.5.

it's been 8ish days since the last entry... it's been lavidian! truly lavidian... almost...

so here goes... last tues was sorta uneventful, weds was also sorta uneventful, save for a sudden growth spurt in badminton attendence... will need formal structure soon. thurs blading was cancelled due to a lack of interest (although with recent developments and the return of a particular someone - Cynth... things could get slightly more shaken). Friday - went to the Ebz churchy thingy... got lost trying to get Alex and Peter... Totally got lost in blackburn area... but made it there in one piece. was an intriguing time (according to another particiular somebody... intriguing means absolutely nothing to a reader, but still it was truly intriguing). After which, went up to the nearby Dandenong mountains wif Chloe. Went to a nearby trek beside skyhigh, walked till there was no more sunlight... though i must admit the moonlight did play nicely against the foliage... due to a stint of stupidity i only had my shades, and left my spectacles in the car... so i was partially blind towards the end of it...

An average Friday was crowned by an abso-spectacular Saturday - mornington. a random gathering of individuals - Joker, Chloe, Princess + the Ultimate Lavidian... the killer ride = the best road trip ever. despite an obvious innocuous exhaustion, i drove the trip... down to rye to see the sand sculptures... then to Artur's maze (dun remember the real name) - joker had discount coupons, so that was swell too!! i remember eating fish and chips on a bbq set at rye... feeling the sun on my skin, the breeze in my hair, and the salt on my lips... c'est la vie, mon cher, c'est la vie ques tres lavidas... ultimate lavidian.

night ended with dinner at some nice jap restaurant on smith street (i also dunno the name... maybe i should work on increasing my memory power???). Highlighted by Joker, Chloe, Vincent, Cynth. Cynth in particular... her long-awaited return to the high-lavidian game... she's back... ladies and gents... BOO! well... it's nice to have her finally back in my life... although we'll see how long this will last... with the inherent tendency towards dysfunction and disdain, the ultimate lavidian will need a personality tweak... i'm calling this the great uphill trudge for absolution and obvious reasons.

hmm... sunday, did church, then went back to sunbury... the start of my SNOOZE-fest... yes. this easter was also perpetuated with a snooze fest... almost 20 hrs of total snooze over 48 hours... and a fully recharged lavidian is ready to take on the world again!!! let's hope this will last until Anzac day, when another large scale outing is on the books. this time... Daylesford.

monday went wif dad and his sunbury mates to Bendigo to view the easter monday parade and the brilliance of the 300-feet dragon... was rather spectacular to see the strong chinese history in a country town such as bendigo... i'll not go into detail.. but after this experience... Easter monday 2008 trip to bendigo anybody??? haha...

ok. i need to get back to my boring life....

WORK WORK (spoken like the orc peons in Warcraft3)...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2007-04-02T12:33:00.000+10:00

Okay... a sorta weekly update....

weds... badminton happened... the drizzle and the FINA made parking irritating, but was good... Ivan came to join us.. methinks he'll be a permanent... thursday... marked by another cancelled rollerblading session - due to nightfall and rainfall. Martha and i made chawanmushi and warmed some pizza and watched house... then we um... retired for the night. roller blading will face challenges over the winter as we strive to move it to saturday late morn/early arvo. friday... um... sweaty palms and and a palpitating heart... received the email from my dealer saying the $$ cleared... means.. that i can pick Eden up ANYTIME...

arranged for my dad to pick her up for me.. since that night, i wanted to touch her and drive her... BUT... there was that stoopid shopping thingy with Chloe and her friend. In the end it was she was a no show... maybe aliens kidnapped her... so it was just me + Chloe travelling to 2 Kathmandu's to get her her stunning black jacket, and a um.. stoopid beanine thingy with the two pony tail thingies that are so inviting to PULL...

sent Chloe home, DASHED for my train, and shuddered the moment i lay eyes and fingers on her sleek body... sleek lines... just plain SEXY... Ford Focus Zetec... absolutely Lavidian... haha... in honour of my Lavidian way of life... I am the guardian of Eden.

Saturday... um... DROVE EDEN... helped sista and Shaz move... then BBQ @ riverside, then dinner @ Joker's. the dinner was impressive.. but not as impressive as Joker's bach.pad. now, that is some serious moolah... putting pressure on me to um... strive highly... but nah... can't be stuffed.. drove Dorothy and Jolene there... was ok.. though they were a tad quiet... haha.

Eden proved herself, a very high quality specimen...

sunday... had brekky at sweetheart's wif dorothy... then rested and did some stuff... then dinner wif Rayz and Gordon... it was a nice dinner... two free bottles of wine... unfortunately i think the fish did not go that well with me.

An eventful week... EDEN-tastic!! next up... Easter break... and EDEN will demonstrate why she is the number one numero uno.

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2007-03-27T13:11:00.000+10:00

Monday was highlighted by the DTFC.. the DT Fan Club (DT being my housemate). What an honour... went to the Lounge for $6 parmas... with around 10 of us, i think... it was swell... everybody had some fun i think... Rayz and myself were just totally going nutz and all this without any alcohol... hah.. the official launch of the unofficial DTFC? maybe... haha...

yeah, there was a lotta crappin' and singin' and loads of dancin'... then got home... um... home... yeah... i was SUPPOSED to start my assignment... but had NO mood... sheesh... time is ticking away and all i'm doing is wasting time?? hehe...

you know... sometimes i wonder... what is the lavidian's purpose... then i realise... the purpose is... to HAVE a purpose... hmm...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2007-03-26T10:09:00.000+10:00

whoa... one more weekend has passed by, as time drips through my fingers, i realise the one important fact... i am the ultimate lavidian, and i am alive... despite circumstances, one's dream is what keeps one alive...

okay, now down to the gist of it... last coupla days were VERY eventful to say the least... Weds completed teh assignment, Thurs did the bladign thingy, went to ITO for dinner wif Chloe, then durian gelato... but the highlight of that night... the black beauty - she was shimmering the the starry night, calling out my name... but i resisted... i must resist the Audi TT... at least for the time being...

the future beckons... oh yah.. and recent update... due to popular demand, Claire is no more. Now, she is Eden. I still have no idea why people prefer a dead hero to a live hero... maybe it's the whole concept of um... when you die, you start becoming famous... sorrie claire, from now hence, you will be known as Eden, the harbinger of life...

Well... the top 10 spots have been filled. that's all there is at this point of time...

*back to my beautiful story of my life... Thursday gone. Come Friday... Red. Dinner at um... where again? um... yes.. some Thai place along swannie... then went to watch TMNT.. was um... visually beautiful, crappy main story arc, fantastic side arcs... then the walk.. yes. you can never not have that romantic stroll down the boulevard... then dun rem.. then sat... parents + sis + krispy kreme + miss marples + pies in the sky... then lifegroup, then um... dinner... then crashed the old group, and then went home... FACT: there is an ominous cloud overhead... with multiplexities that have dire consequences... oooh... i'm sooo scared....

ha!

sunday... church, lunch @ some HK bbq with huge servings in flemington... nice... i like... even bumped into parents + sista. then... met ty, and some others, went down to the chocolate exhibition thingy... then they left after walkign through the coffee, but failed to locat the coffee. i met up wif chloe and her groupies for a short while... sampled some dark chocs... and then bumped into Ray and Pink... it's been what, 12-15months? caught up, joined them and Pink's cousin and his groupies for drinks @ Fed Sq, then went off pub crawlign... we hit Kitten Club, and Ms Aquiris' *I dun rem... was probably too um... tipsy... haha... nice peeps... NEVER pub crawl on sundays... EVERYTHING's closed...

then red joined us... and after a walk, she FORGOT the camera... *haha...

do i make sense? no. am i supposed to make sense? no....

tonite is $6 parma @ lounge... expenses have blown up.

i am the ultimate lavidian... waiting for me eden

2007-03-21T11:36:00.000+11:00

recent developments have been promising...

after serious discussions with Timmy, it is extremely likely that the venture will take off by the end of the year. Once it happens, the next phase begins, and the challenges will overwhelm once again. Will I, be of sufficient lavidas to embrace my destiny??? OF COURSE... needless to say. so yes...

other endeavours have come to a screeching halt due to a impasse of obstacles and a general lack of sustanance. Started work on an assignment... week's been nice so far. sunday went to the thai food fest wif dorothy and Cherry, was nice, had chicken skewers and pad thai...

BEAUTIFUL weather... that's WHY i stay in melbourne. after that cherry and i walked along the melbourne markets @ the arts centre...

went home... then went to tyler's to watch the Melbourne F1... was one of the best races ever... Messa was stunning in his fightback, Raikonnen calm in his dominance, and to see Hamilton drive so strongly barely behind Alonso (i still think McLaren rigged the pit stop to allow Alonso to overtake Hamilton). supposed to do a dinner thingy wif red i think... but extenuating circumstances made it a supper... went to bimbo along brunswick. cheap nice pizzas - i rate them 7.5/10. Blah blah... got home late, slept even later...

monday?? work... then met timmy + gang for a last dinner @ peko peko. EVERYBODY MUST go there... the pop chicken and honey chicken are to DIE for... no kidding...

tuesday? went for the Bible Study. Was interesting, had this US colonel guy talk... he was very learned... was a great session, though my thoughts were generally focused on the thrubbing sensation in my head... along with the sweaty palms and stinging sensation in my frontal lobe... i know the asprin i took later that night helped to calm my instable system. a word of advice.... people. SLEEP! if you do not sleep, your body reacts unexectedly.

also i may have located a potential partner, Timmy, if you're reading this... met Ernie, a girl who's sorta into games. will expose her to the lavidian way of life, and may induct her into the venture. an asset? or a liability? only time will tell.

hmm... speaking about asset management... i am in the process of ironing out several details in the organisating of a new musical group. since it has been widely accepted that i fall into the category of NO talent in singing... i will endeavour to start a new pop group... i call it the LAVIDAS 5. fashioned after the spice girls maybe? i'll be the grinning song writer/manager reaping in the profits of the bimbotic songs...

the rest of the week?? culminating in a saturday of clashing plans??? i must still try to make it to the lifegroup on saturday... i miss the peeps there... and i do wanna get to know them better. today is wednesday... wednesday is assignment night (only for this night). thursday is blading night, and assignment submission night (only for this night). Friday... is my super duper chilling night... *hmm... and i used to wonder where all my time went to... so yes... dsepite all the busy busy events packing my schedule, i will and MUST make time to further the lavidian way of life... it is the lavidas who live, the rest just breathe.

is it an addiction? or just an obsession? It has been known for a while now that I have an obsession with people. Although i categorise most people under the super duper useless category, there are a few who qualify as quality, and those who do are set for a lifetime of honour and respect.

Another phase i am entering into soon, is known as the Claire phase. Once Claire enters my life another paradigm begins. I fully intend to compose a book... for people to book in who wants a ride in Claire... you can start registering your interest soon. I just hope there are no complications with Claire. Ah well...

What else?

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2007-03-19T09:57:00.000+11:00

the last two weeks have been intriguing, to say the least...

a sudden influx in demands, and a slight perpetuation of disorder has seeped into my daily routine... distraction from goals have resulted in wasted hours and haggard me.
4-hour sleep a night over 4 days will take a huge chunk out of your energies, and i have been drained...

i apologise... to myself, for losing my focus, for allowing minor distractions to sway me from my goals and ambitions. to my advent supporters, sorry i have failed to meet up with your high expectations. however, despite my recent brush with my decline... rest assured, the ultimate lavidian will still prevail. with widescale changes expected to sweep through my life, i fear that i may crumble under the immense pressure.

the one extraneous factor that has overwhelmed my well laid plans is my social life... due to a sudden explosion in social demands, i have been neglecting my work, my studies and my dreams. I forgot that the only reason a person has to live for is their dreams, their destiny... as the ultimate lavidian, i have to continually strive towards excellence, to be the shining light, the example to all the normal average humanoid lifeforms that inhabitate this planet. (Man, that was a 110% geeky statement)... but haha... c'est la vie. i am the ultimate lavidian... and i must never forget that fact. once i lift my feet off my lavidas lifestyle, i fall... and that brings me FURTHER and FURTHER away from the goal... to be the TRUE lavidian.

Yes, i am a proud wannabe... i wanna become the 100% pure and true lavidian... despite being the ultimate (comparing to others), i am still far from perfection... and the true lavidian is the integral perfection...

Dreams were made to be achieved... but fear keeps us from achieving them... fear of failure, fear of inconsequential consequences. Badminton is on a hiatus for 2 wks... due to stoopid FINA... can't wait for the opportunity to befall...

blading was unfortunately cancelled last wk due to uncontrollable circumstances... MAYBE we should wear ponchos and blade... just in case the tears from heaven try to prevent us.

Cruel fate may twist life around you, but the lavidian way of life allows us to circumvent that... by applying a combination of grit determination, self application, and perspective management. many times it's how we interpret circumstances that result in an emotional response. Example... i give you a monkey... you either like it or loathe it. Those two responses in emotional in nature, however, both are equal in all probabilities... and the interpretation of each individual is based on conditioning. Conditioning allows a person's true value system to be superceded with a new artificial value system which the person would believe is 100% natural. Thus, if there is a circumstance by which you are receiving a response in which you deem inappropriate, apply the lavidian response conditioning technique (you can ask me how to apply this), and ta-da... a totally new reality. your professors will LURVE you, your friends will give you LOTS of chocolates, and i will accept you into the ranks of lavidian maggot.

am i bored... no... am i stressed... yes... am i confused... i dunno... but i know one thing for sure... the lavidian is on an uphill spike...

assignment due in 2 days w/o any prior work done... that's tonite, babe. i'm going to apply a technique i developed last year known as the "lavidian super last minute cram until your brain is totally fried but you feel like you are on super steroids' technique which has brought forth AMAZING results at the price of my sanity... yes i know... you think that there is no measurable difference between my sanity now and then... but i still protest... there is a difference...
in all my ramblings i have not updated you on my currency of situation.

1. trying to fit into the church / cell group2. trying to continue to grow the lavidian belief3. doin 2 subjects this semester, twice my load from last year4. statistical 350% increase in social activities from last year5. statistical 520% increase in mental insanity6. organising musical trips... miss saigon + phantom...7. a sudden desire to launch my own musical... to be called... LAVIDAs.. the true story8. parents are here... WHEE!!9. i am getting a new car... Audi A3? A4? or ford focus?10. i am thinking... new small digital camera - inconvenient to lug an slr around... to take pictures of all the hot chix in melb... and NO... that does not refer to you.
i am the ultimate lavidian...

2007-03-02T10:24:00.000+11:00

self reflection, ambition, exhaustion.

those are words that describe what i have gone through in the last 2 months... wow... time flies. many people have stopped visiting my site since i have stopped writing.

well, a quick update... everything moving so fast.. my brain is once again mulsh due to a week of 5hr sleep per dat on average + lotsa kewl activities. started a weekly blading thingy to complement my weekly badminton... dropped out of saturday soccer - can't commit to that sort of waking time.

will update on the continued existance of absolution...

cheers mate!

2006-12-13T12:59:00.000+11:00

exciting!! 3 days to my holidays... my first real holiday since i started my the boring life...haha...

well, a quick update on the latest developments. I still need to balance the tracks on several of my songs b4 i can burn my copies (i need around 30 copies to distribute) gosh... now, that will be difficult... i've allocated thursday to do my final burnigns and printings...

monday, geraldine came to me desperate for my help. So, after having chicken rice with Chanel and Bryant, I met her and we started work on her video portfolio... a super duper rushed job, and i didn't even have time to focus my inspirations. but ah well.. lavidas... so did taht until the ungodly 3am... then i crashed... and realised taht a recent song that i am writing halfway ("i am so beautiful") was PURRFECT for her. she suited teh role 100%... a totally bimbotic blond singing an act cute song... haa... well, as 2007 approaches and the end of 2006 looms, i am preparing myself for the challenges ahead. There will be wholesale changes that can potentially revamp my reality and shift my paradigm totally. Thought I was crazee... well... come 2007 i will be absolutely insane.

With the relative success of my songs and recordings, i will attempt a pursuit at real song writing... maybe i can write songs for others to sing, but we'll see how things go next year... i do also want to get rich... and QUIT my job... imagine... retiring at 25... taht is a dream come true, i tell ya... haha

Yesterday, Dorothy returned from her Cairns trip... went to Stalactites wif Princess and then slept on the couch as she watched John Tucker... i also read a about 75% of the new book by Kiyosaki and Trump - it was interesting yet um.. non-involving. then i watched hoodwinked... which i then declared to be the BEST movie i watched in 2006. was it good? hell ya... absolutely FANTASTIC story telling.

tonite, office has a christmas thingy... hope i dun get too pissed... but rest assured.. i WILL drink. there is no reason why i shouldn't consume taht much alcohol... after all... it's a celebration... 2007 marks teh last year to achieve my dreams before i truly enter the world of the depressings... and IF i do manage to achieve them... man... that would be a dream come true...

it doesn't hurt to dream. it only hurts if you don't.

i am the ultimate lavidian...

2006-12-04T13:12:00.000+11:00

stressed...

so many issues to deal with, no time.

so many projects to do, no time.

so many songs to write, that i have time...

haha...

bbq on sun was great... celebrated doris' bdae - was swell...
what else happened?? sitting on the grass, drinking lotsa beer - now.... that' s life...

sat was nice... recorded 2 songs, had dinner @ metre-long pizza, the marinara and smoked salmon pizzas were very nice.

but still.. i'm super tired... need my rest... BAD... need my rest... VERY VERY BAD...

well... 2 wks left... looking forward to a great holiday...

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2006-11-26T14:08:00.000+11:00

i am the ultimate lavidian.

the last 2 days highlighted some intriguing confrontations with perspectives and proliferations. PINK ELEPHANT... bzzz.. it's comign along so well... once i'm done with this gotta start with the next song.. i may work on some of my older songs... haha.. this is so kewl. but i have to stop this soon.. gotta start working on my 40% assignment due tomorrow...

i need to balance out my thoughts... still in my typically lavidian way of life... reality drifts away... let's go party!

yest... had a bbq. Very kewl, very fun... then played monopoly.. with the credit card version.. which was interesting but got slightly irritating towards the end... today... i'm in the countryside now wif me dad... it was a good day to catch up, and seeing the massive improvement on the standard of the garden, and the tidiness...

hah... now, the big question is this... is it or isnt' it going to happen. will it come true? Will the bbq happen next wk? ah well, it all depends on dorothy.

also... another food for thought. Distance. Relationships. Risk. All very common concepts, but here's a new one.. torsion. Torsion describes the torsive component of a distant relationship. Torsion is proportion to risk. Torsion increases capacity for relational instabilities.

i have no idea what i'm mumbling on about... but i know i'm dead beat. had 5 hrs sleep yest. going to take a nap now, then waking to continue assignment... cheeerios...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-11-23T11:40:00.000+11:00

yset timmy came over with nice Mini Octopus pizza.. really yummylicious. then we played badminton. day b4, beth came over and we recorded her song and an accompaniment for my new song... 'pink elephant'. it'll be a HIT!

am listening to my songs, ready to start remastering them over the course of next week. Lalalaa.... i really miss her... who? her.

tonite going to try to rush a stoopid assignment. tomorrow i took leave, but maybe i may have to do assignment too... *SUX! fri, thai dinner then borat, sat, bbq then got karaoke. what else... lalalaa... maybe i should dance... lavidas...

@ work, they just took me off my old project and dumped me onto a new one... lalala...

i AM the ultimate lavidian

2006-11-21T13:28:00.000+11:00

guess what???

time passes, things happen, events occur, people change.

the passing of time is established by causality. everything has a cause and effect. period.

life in the last few has been an intriguing time of self-discovery.. i realised.. that i want my HOLIDAY!!! i want holiday... just a couple more weeks till i am able to embrace my destiny *and certain peoples too. and i am looking forward to the conclusion of the year of independence. what have i done asofar... yest had a discussion with a possible designer for my game... 'Rourou, how hot art thou' or rhhat, which is the workign title.

My album is jsut about to be completed in the next 2, 3 wks.. and there are 20 limited edition copies available... register yoru interest wif me... it's titled.. Just My Life.

i am bored. bored of work... i wanna retire... i wanna retire young. maybe i should just rob a bank. nah.. dun think that's effective enuf.

whatever it is... i AM the ultimate lavidian

i am the ultimate lavidian...

do you miss me?

haha...

2006-11-16T14:49:00.000+11:00

Today.

Today is today. 30 days to the renaissance.

Today.

Today is the day. The month of anticipation begins.

Today.

Been a rather eventful week... met up with ssm, fsp, and am just about to get the framework in place for my new endeavour...

The week's been great... fm07 is starting to lose its appeal... i need to get fifa manager now... going to try to balance the multiplicity, but unknown how successful i'll be. there's just so much to do, and so little time to do them. also have been keeping up to date with my 4 series... battlestar galactica, house, prison break and heroes... all have been fantastic and absolutely stunning this wk.

songs... been slightly songed-out... am in a void of inspiration at this point of time... hopefully tonite, i can serve to clear some of these issues...

what else...

i want holiday, i like holiday, i want...

2006-11-06T13:18:00.000+11:00

i am so bz it's not farniee...

brain's mulsh.. rushing assignment, figuring out weird stuff at work, playing fm07... DAMN the FM07.. it's so addictive...

aniways... dunno what to say... dunno what to do...

life is complex, a delicate weaving of fabrics... each small change has a immense effect on the rest... like dominos... one event perpetuates a continual string of events, leading to unpredictable iterative results. the ultimate chaos of causality.

no time to write....

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2006-11-02T11:47:00.000+11:00

life's been accelerating.. once again we approach the end of an exciting year... summarized by 1. increased monies, 2. reestablishing the lavidas way of life, 3. rediscovering my passion for music and arts, 4. leading a revolution.

These will forever define my 2006, in which i approached the lavidian way of life.

The week has been fulfilling, and as i ponder upon the reality of my passions for the arts, i start pondering.. should i pursue my inspirations? or should i simply pursue it as a hobby... rather than lose sleep and joy over intricacies? that i don't know... and can't say...but that will the decision that shape 2007.

The currency of the situation embraces the possibility of an end of 2007 USA trip, as well as a mid-2008 start for a 2-yr England-based stint. Realisation of these depends on possibility, or several possible approaches, all of which are currently under analysis and development.

What do i want... what do we as humans want wif our lives? the lavidian theology states that the purpose of life is to live and to let live. to pursue what we want, because we are who are. Somebody once told me... life is not about the breath that you take but the moments that take your breath away. Where are these moments? If you experience just 1 breath-taking moment a month, it would be sufficient, wouldn't it?

C'est la vie...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-10-25T12:33:00.000+10:00

whoa... has time really flown by taht quickly??

a fast update on the past wk in perspective... last weds met BB to discuss a possible new project, then played bad, thurs, went's to Patricia's and cooked salmon pasta... simple but effective... MUST do it again... i'll go by to cook soemthign else another time, i guess... then friday, that was flare... very um.. flary... can't be stuffed explainign. saturday was teh interim church group led by the intervening pastoral team. After that totally weird session, me and me peeps decided to leave the ministry. we are going to be a totally kewl independent christian group.. the lavidian movement anyone??

this week, i've been bzbz recording and mastering my new song, 'hold me close', in an attempt to raise the bar on my recording standards, i have faced immense synchronisation issues, and will continue to persevere until i have reached an acceptable quality.

Sometimes when you are faced with 2 equally bad decisions, what do you do? you just choose the better of the two. Yes... there is an ominous cloud hanging over me, but what can i say... i am joel, and in my pursuit of becoming the true lavidian, certain tough decisions have to be made. i had to choose the lesser of two evils. i have been in transition between churches, due to lost in confidence in current leadership in my old church. there was a dramatic intervention by them in my old cell group, due to certain events, notwithstanding my leaving the church. Unfortunately, due to the circumstances, the best option was to allow the old cell members the option to move out of the previous structure, and we are now a non-affiliated group. An exodus? a rebellion? a revolution? call it whatever you want, i dun really care. What's important is that there is spiritual growth. It is unfortunate... but some decisions and actions have to be done, lest the result of inaction is further disarray.

aniways, let's redirect this conversation to biological clock. when a girl turns 25... her time is up and she either gets married, or... LOTS! *if you dun get it, LOTS = left on the shelf. Why is this so? 'cos the shelf life of a girl is only 25 years. once you stretch beyond it, the physical attractiveness fades away, and they will tend to become bitter about not having someone. However, what is more apparant than not is the contrast when considering the effective shelf life of men. Over time, their value increases. Why? 'cos they get their act together over time, and girls dig that. So here you have char koay teow and wine... one decomposes after time and one increases in value.

I am still young, and as i plow through the years, i am not fazed about this phenomenon, as i can only stand to benefit. in 5 years, i'll be able to date a 10year younger gal, and this time it'll be legal. So, as time ticks by, my options open... whereas for girls.. .their options narrow.

Thank God i'm a guy. Yes this is very controversial... but so what? it's my blog, and it's my point of view, if you dun like it, then dun read it... haha... the theory of char koay teow and wine...

How about the other intriguing theory of cockroach and gold coin? ppl get into r/ships for different reasons, and that i can understand. ppl stay in relationships for different reasons, and i tell ya, it is stoopid. the first type is... they wanna be together...so for both parties, good, they have found their gold coin and wanna hang on to it. But what if you have a cockroach instead? what if the gold coin you thought was your r/ship was actually a cockroach? do you then toss it away?? do you fling it as far away, to prevent infection? A good relationship is beneficial, but a bad one is detrimental, like a cockroach, it'll infect you until you DIE... or want to DIE at least... Other ppl hang on to their cockroaches, hoping that in the process of hanging on, they will find a gold coin one day, then they will do a swap... swapping the cockroach for the gold coin. Is this stupid?? YES! Y? 'cos by holding on to the cockroach, you are still being infected. Maybe to most ppl an average r/ship is good enuf, but after my last one, i've decided that average just isnt' enuf... if the person is not fantastic, that person will never get a go. y? 'cos it'll just be a waste of time. imagine ending up with a cockroach for the rest of your life just because you were too scared and insecure to throw it out, and go searching for the gold coin? Or maybe a gold coin passed you by, 'cos you here clinging to your cockroach. Gold coins are valuable.. worth more than you can ever imagine... and once you've found yours, treasure it.

I beleive that everybody has their gold coin out there... but by holding on to a cockroach, you may put the gold coin off... Statistics??? i'll give you statistics... only 50% of couples are happy together. the other half are just waitign for someone better to come along... one of my chix... a veryvery beautiful one, just broke up wif the guy she swore to me that she'd marry... they were tog for a coupla years too... then.. he found a brighter, bigger gold coin. Is this what r/ships are?? fair trade towards higher value??? what is the point then? it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all??? or ... all you need is love? but why settle for mediocrity when you can have abundance... i believe in abundance... maybe i am too picky... but over the years, i've realised that the meaning of life is to dream, and to pursue your dreams with utmost dedication and devotion. As for relationships, if you're a girl.. go... get hitched... before you pass your 25 mark and suffer... guys.. relax... you have no expiry date.. sit back and enjoy...

i am the ultimate lavidian...

2006-10-17T22:30:00.001+10:00

"time passess... things happen... events occur... people change..."

this was the third mantra i inscribed in the early years of 2000, back in my exploratory days... an as i reflect upon this, i see the meaning and the quality of thought that i possessed even back then. Even now, as time slowly ticks away, various things happen, ballooning into the occurances of events, and in all that process, people start changing. I have changed, and you have too. By understanding that we cannot oppose the natural balance of life, we can then live the way life is meant to be lived...

fyi, the other two mantras are "the existance of non-existance if probably improbable," and "to be is to live."

update on my life... a whole cacophony has happened.. with the sudden reduction of events in the week before, this week has exploded into a torrent of events. i am shaken, not stirred, cautious, not alarmed. Highlights were monday's dinner... laksa king and then churos... YUMMYYYYYY... then was ST's bdae... was interesting too. what's next.. c'est la vie? tried to talk to kiffy today, but certain occurances prevented it from occuring.

what's next? the return of the king? the return of the true lavidian? yes.. maybe that's it... i am the ultimate lavidian, but perhaps, there is still another level to achieve.. to be the true lavidian... and only God can guide me down that path.

i am bz... VERY bz, but i can't get work done, am feeling stressed.. there's so much at hand at this point of time. Sat played frisbee, was swell.. very swell actually.. haha... and got some studying done. i dunno what what will unfold in the next coupla weeks... but it's all in God's hands, so i'm KEWL wif that.. lalalla... i think i'm going to go totally nutz sometime soon... LOOKING FORWARD To my thurs dinner wif patricia... now.. that's a highlight... as you can say, friday going for flare dance... to support my girls.. and guys... and sat... that's where the decisions will be made that will determine the future of the lavidian regime... i am the ultimate lavidas.. will i become the true lavidian? only time will tell.. .there are many things that i have to sort out before i embrace my destiny... Dorothy may be leaving soon too... meaning that'll be farewell to one of the most important ppls in my life... many have left, and few have filled in the huge gaps... but i'll survive and trudge on... it's the people that count, and my heart trembles with the knowing apocalypse just pending in the distance...

What is the meaning of life? Simply to live and let live? or to realise yourself, and fulfil your potential? perhaps... or perhaps... everything's just a facade... all's but faded away... let's just dance and forget all this...

what song shall we dance to??? what else is there??? "ETERNAL SUNSHINE!"

i am the ultimate lavidian...

trying to be the true lavidian

2006-10-10T13:29:00.000+10:00

A quick update... wkend was swell, on sat, visited ben and beth's life group, then met up wif dad, then tried to look at assignment, but was too busy playing wif the ds... i managed to hack it, haha... On sun, woke up, went for the lunch at aa's... was swell too... rather noisy, i must admit.. but then in the arvo, my brain suddenly shut... and i napped as dorothy drove back. next... rushing assignment... and monday, rushed assignment too...

Now, enuf about the boring stuff... back to what really matters... time... you need to spend time wif yourself... ppl nowadays spend time at work, wif ppl, in front of tv... but not with themselves... how can you understand yourself if you dun spend time wif yourself? Balance is and will always be the key to a satisfying and exciting life. I'm currently unable to maximise my experiences due to the huge chunk of projects on my hands now... and as i plow through them, i have to balance the amount of human-interaction as well as productivity. There is a finite amount of time to be divided among human-interaction and productivity. When you enjoy a cuppa wif a mate, that is time you no longer have to study for a test, or prepare for an assignment.

I choose to do further studies as I believe that the benefits will outweigh the costs. i choose to play my ds as the games inspire creativity. i choose to meet up with people who i want to. That is my life. I choose to undertake projects as i am me... am i crazee... i know i am... but it's all coming along...

one recent conversation i had was about commitment. is commitment good or bad... i was the sole supporter of 'bad' in a group where everybody was supporting 'good'. I believe that commitment to the right thing is good, whereas commitment to the wrong thing is bad. And since there is an overwhelming tendency for ppl to choose wrongly, most commitments are bad. Then again, considering the negatory predisposition for people to SUCK at commitment... ppl will give up a commitment for the stupidest reasons... due to other commitments, or just a lack of commital persistance. If you commit to a person, it may be good, but the tendency of a commital fallout is too rampant to ignore, 1 out of 2 marriages fail - READ:DIVORCE... a statistic in both USA and Australia. And this does not include statistics for cohabitation that fails, or seriosu relationships that fail.

Hence, I conclude, that no commitment is better than bad commitment. And even good commitment can fail. Hence, if good commitment can fail, good commitment is potentially bad, making ALL commitment potentially bad. So why commit?

Perhaps it is only through commitment that you get most out of life... the things that are worth more will cost more to acquire. there are more risks involved in more profitable ventures. "To love and to be loved in return" - this famous quote from Moulin Rouge examplifies this. It is talking about love... the deepest passions of humanity... but it does not say "To commit, and to be committed in return". I wonder why... (if you get the nuance, good on ya, if not... go read the blogs of some simple-minded bimbo talking about her mascara instead).

In summary... Commitment can be good, but is generally bad based on human tendency and predisposition.

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-10-05T13:04:00.000+10:00

been bzbz...

had din wif lwh on tues, today is tyl, and yest (weds), i cleared up my room... now, i can see the floor. tonite, i'll move my keyboard into my room, completing the set up of my interim studio...

i realised that i do have quite a bit of old half-recordings that i could complete recording... haha... then... success!

i've been talking to a few people, and i am currently LONGING for my end of year trip to come... after all the work, i desire a break... i desire a good, complete break from the normality of life. Phuket, Sarawak are my current destinations... still up for changes in the next few months... i'm flexible... but due to certain developments, vietnam and sabah were removed from the itenary... but more importantly.... the 2007 dream... NZ skiing in july, and Hawaii in dec. Will it happen? I dunno... but i sure do want it to... gosh... how about Barbados?? now, that is an idea...

What else is new? a new theory... the pigeonhole theory that expresses a distinctive point of view on flirting. Hmm... i will try to find time to start recording... but my assignment is due soon, and i really shoudl start preparing to do my certification...

gosh... am i really that lazy... perhaps i am... perhaps i am... but, whatever it is... phase 3 is almost complete... am looking forward to implementing phase 4, but i dun wanna rush into things... for the moment... i must enjoy...

on a totally different topic... i watched devil wears prada yest... haha... an absolutely brilliant movie... with very distinctive themes that overshadow the mild ones. The distinctive ones are seeking out one's dreams, personal vs professional life. the mild ones which i think are VERY VERY intriguing are : conformity, shortsightedness, opportunity.

i can't be bothered elaborating on them, but it is very intriguing i must admit... in a way, the major themes of our lives tend to overshadow the minor ones, however, what we tend to overlook is the undeniable fact that the minor themes are what defines the major themes. An oxymoron? i think so...

i am the ultimate lavidian...

2006-10-03T05:23:00.000+10:00

i was sleeping... my eyes suddenly opened... and the revelation hit me...

life is life... to seek to control life is to be in a small boat at sea trying to control the storm - it is impossible. all you can do is try to navigate best you can towards the direction that you want to go. If you know where you wanna be, then the tormentous journey called life becomes easier to live. since with each torrent and each slapping wave, despite possibly being dragged further and further from your destination... you know that if you are determined enough, sooner or later you will arrive. sooner or later it will become. now... that is the way of life.

think of it as a progression... when young, you travel with the mother ship.... in adolescence, you start straying around, but return to shelter with the behemoths of the sea when the storms come. When the time comes, you leave the comfort. You leave the protection of the mother ship and the fleet... you take on life by yourself. Now, different people have different types of ships of different sizes, but all go through the expense of life. Big ships have trouble with reefs and small ships have troubles with deep oceans. With such a situation in mind, the crew of your life-ship becomes integral. A strong supportive crew will get you to your destination easily. Think of yourself as the captain, and of the different crew are qualities you possess... vision, determination, adaptation, strength of character, etc... another thing that happens is other ships. you may fleet togeher with other ships to help each other in the tremoultous seas... or stop to rescue some floundering ship, or sometimes get knocked aside by some inconsiderate bastard. Whatever the case... the crew of your ship is integral to achieving the goal. If your crew is insufficient to bring you through the crashing waves, upgrade your crew... the only solution. To get a stronger ship is not realistic, as the ship represents you. you cannot change who you are, but can only change the quality of the insides which can and will pull you through.

Time... in essence is life... and like life can be easily wasted... have you wasted your time today? have you wasted your life today... if the things you do take you a step further from where you want to be... DUN DO IT! as simple as that. seek out your destination, then challenge the seas of life...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-10-02T20:17:00.000+10:00

a quick update... friday - went rockclimbing.. then shot pool wif AhZI... saturday... had brekky wif a mate, met his friends, then of i went to bowlin... sunday was less intense... but still... the sermon was very lavidian in nature, and enunciated lavidas with each sentence. Oh yeah, and i witness melbourne victory demolish queensland 4-1. was swell.

no mood to write much, i suddenly have a overwhelmingly packed schedule... despite some stoopid idiot missing my dinner. WTF? i tell ya... WTF... somebody's gonna pay... and gonna pay BIG TIME... such disdain is irrevocably unacceptable.

am i angry, yes, i am... how can lavidian's get angry? a lavidian lives life. sometimes things in life get one angry. so, to be angry is to embrace the lavidas, and by not denying one's emotions, one gets more in touch wif themselves. life sux. that is a fact. however, there is the lavidian precept that by allowing life to suck, we are then able to focus on the things that bring us closer to lavidas. Things happen daily that are outside our control, however, what we can do is to embrace and focus on living the rainbow life... things that you can surround yourself wif to improve the colour content of one's life. hmm...

i am a pissed off ultimate lavidian.

2006-09-28T21:52:00.000+10:00

love... what is the meaning of love...

what does it mean to be in love... what does it mean to love another person... what does it mean to care??

well.. i dunno, and honestly, i dun really care... what is the point of commiting to a relationship espacially in today's society of non-descript and incredible instability. what is the meaning of life... for the first time on my blog, i shall reveal the true meaning of lavidas, and what it means to be a follower of the lavidas. To be a lavidian is more than a calling, more than a destiny, it has to be a burning passion, an obsession. I am obsessed with the lavidas... life... as we know it... life as we experience is simple that... life... why do different things happen to different people? 'cos it's life... ppl are inherently different and possess a nuance which gently permeates all the facets of life. Relationships... career... studies... society... friends... family... ambtions.. love... they are all but invidual components of the whole package, which is you. You represent the fullness of your life... you are the lavidas... you possess the lavidas... but how do you be a true lavidian... by realising yourself, accepting yourself, and perpetuating yourself towards the future. you are what you make of yourself. opportunities present themselves occassionally... a lavidian identifies and maximises them.

life is not perfect. nothing is. but to live the lavidas life, you have to understand the concept of being in lavidas... you need to know what you want, and pursue it. if you fail, you move on... that is the way of the lavidas.. to not allow setbacks/obstacles to come between you and your dream. A lavidian is a fighter, a noble pursuer of dreams, a representation of an undying love... the element of the lavidas is fire... fire... the source of passion... a passionate life... that is the path i have chosen... to walk down a hidden trek engulfed in the blanket of the dark, arms in front of me, unsure of whether it is a tree or a cliff in front of me... but i know one thing... life should not be different shades of grey, but a cacophony of colours... red, blue, green, yellow... i live a colourful life... i do what i think is fun. but what is fun? fun is to be happy wif yaself and do what makes you happy. that is true living.

dreams do no make one great, but they make one more passionate. everybody wants a passionate lover... employers want a passionate employee... i want... a passionate life... a life dedicated to whatever it is that i desire. Of course... a lavidan will accept whatever consequences their actions result in... but it will not stop them. you cannot begrudge a lavidian their life. Lavidians are few and far between in the conforming world of today as people seek mediocrity and comfort over indulgement and happiness... why be content when you can be happy. why live averagely when you can live outrageously?

Red - the colour of my passions...
Blue - the colour of the inner peace...
Green - the dazzling sight of continual growth...
Purple - the realisation of royal bloodline...
Gold - the sun that brings forth life...

colours... we can't live without them, but yet, many of us suffer from pathetically grey lives... why? 'cos we do not pursue passions... we do not have the courage to try to live brilliant lives... we do not understand the lavidian code... the lavidas.

join me, all you lavidians out there... lavidians everywhere unite!!!!

i am the ultimate lavidian...

2006-09-28T09:22:00.000+10:00

yest struggled with tcp threading client/server design. then after work, got home, watched a bit of holland v, then badminton. after that i walked back from albert park... i think i've caught a chill from it.

oh well... what's new? things are coming along, am still XIANX... i need my holidays soon... i wanna go somewhere and enjoy life...

what else to say? i'm at work... which is exciting, but i want more... then again, we are humans... we'll always want more.

looking forward to tonite's good dinner... i think i'll start my dinners from next wk...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-26T12:59:00.000+10:00

It's been 4 days...

Saturday... the BBQ at AA's.. was great.. made sambal sting ray.. SUPERBLY delish... my mouth is still watering from the sensual flavours and the cacophony of fragrances. my mind drifts beyond the expense... savouring the individual sticks of satay, generously coated with absolutely stunning peanut sauce... i even had to turn down and invitation to the anime fest.. JUST for this... haha... then we slacked... and um.. i watched 20 eps of Holland V within 4.5 hrs...

Next morn went to Hopson's Bay... then we um... went to city for lunch wif 'em, due to some complications, ended up walking around the city a bit wif um.. SA... then ended up at DD's place where they had a Korean themed dinner - with the exception of a roast lamb... chatted, and Bridged... been a long time... then met up with Belldy, Kiffy, Saz, and went to Le Churrios for THE BEST churrios with THE SMOOTHEST chocolates... WOW.. that will be a sensation my palate will be longing for for a very very long time...

then yest, worked... then got home... and another 20 eps of Holland V. VERY addictive, but the characters are OH so beautiful, almost as if they were all individually hand sculptured and designed by Leonardo or something... they were so real... and diverse...

Today... work... later, dinner with ahZi, then gonna do a clearance.. i need to clean my room... and then after that i need to start planning for some trips.. i wanna travel somewhere...

am feeling fatigued... wish i had more holidays.. but oh well... haha... at least i still get my time off...

life the last few days is... average... and i'm still praying for a church... as for now... i think i'd better get back to work... ciao peeps...

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2006-09-22T12:38:00.000+10:00

The Real Life...

Reality, perspection, truth are all just relative... realise how reality is just realy relative... haha... but it's true, you can't deny it...

i quote from a conversation yesterday...

Dorothy: "Which school did you go to? Boarding school?"

Barbie: "No.. not boarding school..."

Dorothy: "Then what? go and come back, go and come back school??"

Me and Lenny: *looking absolutely stunned in shock and amusement.

Now, that was farnie.

Am @ work. today is friday... i feel like sleeping... wkend there's a bbq at DoubleA's, then @ nite, gonna try to get some studying done... *dunno why i even bother... i mean... why study when you can play? i can't fiogure it out but it has somethign to do with me being lazy... it's like... laziness is my motivation for working hard, as oxymoronic as it may sound... it does have it's truths.

i have no clue... but i know one thing... I have a friend... my sweet little pink flying elephant... and i'm going to write a song about it! hehe...

nothing much to say at this point of time... i just wanna go home and sleep... haaa...

and rest for the weekend... i have a feeling something special is going to happen...

hold me close... hold me tight... feel my arms with your warmth...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-21T19:10:00.000+10:00

delphi multi-system project - that's what i'm working on rite now at work. Interesting, intriguing o say the least... am waiting for Dorothy and her friend Barbie to cook dinner as Barbie's bf Lenny is sitting there presumably surfing the internet.

On the way to work today i thought of an interesting song concept... something about my friend, a sweet little small flying elephant. Hmm.. speaks much for my sanity... haha... badminton yest was swell... good games.. relatively, and the dinner with the duck was sumptuous... absolutely... YUMMILICIOUS... WHEE!!! she says she's hot, *A says B is hot... but i honestly dun think so... i think B is just average, dunno why guys all go crazee over her... hah... maybe those guys are just sad cases of small egos and patheticness... i look at her and wonder... and feel absolutely nothign.. nothing in either of the scales...

On another note, Friday is coming here... TGIF!!! Whee-hoo... can't wait... to be able to do NOTHIN again.. i need a break... Xindy and I sorta came up with a plan... to go camping... real camping where you wear the same clothes, dun shower and just smell each other's stench (or in my case... my sweet sexy pheromes). If anything, that'll be in at least 3 or 4 wks time... depending on the currency of the situation.

I am broke. Officially... i may be struggling to get through this month due to the inability to pay rent using credit... BAH to the agents, and BAH to the financial institutions... BAH to you all... prison break 5... WHOA... haha... who would have thought the silo they are looking for is NO LONGER THERE... HAHA... If you haven't seen it, too bad... ;)... i know... you wanna kill me... oh whatever...

i think i'm like ultimate crappy too... just now, i was askin like...

uL : "What temperature do you wanna set the oven?"

Dorothy: "Dunno" (turns to Barbie)

uL: "High or Low?"

Barbie: "High"

uL: (looks straight at Barbie...) "Hi, how are you?"

BWAHAHAAAA...

after that i was like wtf... am i really that crappy... oh well... after all...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-20T12:50:00.000+10:00

Today is the middle of the week...

Val cancelled din yest... leaving me to set up xna and test snubby's game framework, was kewl... then watched prison break s2e5... can it get any better? hah... Did some laundry... then watched some you tube... there is some full of crap stuff in there...

gonna leave work at 5pm, then head to pac house for duck wif fam + fam friends. gonna bring Xindy to badminton after that... i think i left my bible at the campsite... hope they found it. also, i think i'm getting bored again... haa... need more inspiration perhaps, or am i just deliberately nondescript?

Tonite, hope to complete the installation of my studio... then i can start phase 3 asap... thought i was 1 wk early, but now i'm actually 1 wk behind...

i'm tired...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-19T13:04:00.000+10:00

SIAM...

Shit It's Already Monday...

(This was written yesterday)

woke up, and felt like going back to bed... head was slightly aching... but now am feeling alrite... lips are still feeling a bit weird… is it an allergy? Maybe… to what? Nobody knows… well, maybe this is my thorn in my flesh…

Have been pondering over what I call socio-relational dynamics… or SRDs… SRDs define communal theory as well as attraction theory. Communal theory describes the tendency for a commune of individuals to group into communal groups of lowest standard deviations. Attraction theory describes the innate nature of individuals to seek out other individuals of high attraction factor. SRD studies identifies the predominant behavioural traits and roles in a communal group, analyzing motivations and reasons behind each action.

Aniways… back to my intentions… I fully intend to complete either one of my song expos *I believe* or *Hold me close* by this week… it has been dragging on, and new inspirations keep coming in… I am currently not happy with the lyrical component in *I believe*. But I am positive it’ll be sorted out soon. After these two pieces, I’m going to experiment with re-compositing *eternal sunshine* with a full blown instrumental group…

(Now, this is written today)

Yesterday’s mee goreng was expensive (bell bought everything from safeway), and was not fantastically tasty (I screwed up). But was a good time to catch up wif them… went to bed… woke up at 330 am… and talked to Xindy, shared with her the lavidian theology, and then watched a bit of some stoopid teen-movie…

Health is recovering, but lips still dunno… Lord.. WHY ME? Why gimme such a thorn? Doesn’t matter… Life goes on. Me waking at 330 am was a weird thingy… as I never wake at that hour… then suddenly I did, and Xindy needed to talk to someone… it’s how do you say it, divine intervention… just like now. Tonite having dinner wif Val… not sure what to do yet… hee… I can’t wait for tomorrow… dinner at pacific house… READ: DUCK!… then badminton… and then… rest…

Thursday will be my study time… I think I wanna complete my assignment asap... Val just msged me to CANCEL… oh well.. I’ll just go home and do laundry, cook a bit, and get some rest.. still slightly sick… but recovering well. I wanna compose more songs too… haa...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-17T23:53:00.000+10:00

camp. am back.

am tired. slept. going to sleep more. am feeling a tingling sensation in the throat region... must have overexerted slightly. the 2 night 2 day camp was very swell, and i got a lot out of it... how much? HEAPS.

1. realised that my kewlness was in fact not gone. i was still as kewl as ever, if not kewler. it's just that i have been around boring ppl too much that even my kewl self got so bored.

2. realised that my current spiritual disharmony was due to the lack of a home church.

3. realised that my time in SSCOC is officially at an end and that i will need new pastures.

4. realised that i am STILL the ultimate lavidian.

5. realised that i can play volleyball.

6. realised that i do still have a heart to serve.

7. realised that God will always have his way. regardless.

and above all... i like the ppl there... the ppl are mostly decently interesting, with relatively exciting personalities, unlike the monotonous straights that i have been getting to know. talking to him helped me realised that this may be the place that i settle my invaluable self. the girls? a coupla decent ones, and there were a coupla that did catch my eye. however, i am picky... and will not settle for only looks - looks are insufficient. she must be kewl. kewl girls are hard to find. with most being boring and unexceptional. am still uncertain whether any of them are interesting enuf... we'll find out in time, although i was indeed flattered to have received a decent amount of IOIs. Unsurprising though, considering the exceptionally brilliant personality that i have, haha... makes everybody else pale in comparison.

Guys? amazingly, the guys were swell... they were friendly... methinks that they R kewl... haha.. and i dun say this about guys often...

What were the key experiences? Let's see the volleyball game 5 on 5... we won 2-1... haha... and the trampoline and *popcorn* a cool game... where a person curls up into a ball, and another person jumps on the trampoline bouncing the person trying to get the person to uncurl.

would like so say more, but my beauty sleep calls out to me... ciao....

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-14T23:33:00.000+10:00

brain is almost back to normal.. body still slightly weak, but recovering... i just watched my um.. 2004 cooking video i think.. going to try to edit.. gosh.. i was SOO full of crap... laughed my head off.. totally insane.. was i ever that kewl.. gosh, if i was half as kewl as i was then, i think i'm still pretty darn kewl.. i just need to keep pushing the correct buttons and keep my mind focused on the multiple facets. i do have multiple facets, and that is what makes me supremely unique... a balloon full of ideas... and an uncanny ability to get things done (if i want it done badly enuf)...

so yeah.. i am the JL.. forever and ever more...

Lavidas forever more...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-14T09:57:00.000+10:00

i am back at work,

i am still not back at health,

i lurve my job, but i hate working,

brain is officially still listed under mulsh.

Still feeling the effects of the weather... am on asprin and paracetamol, but throat still hurts like crazee... no kissing... :( ...

yest was rather productive... removed the 2x60GB HDDs from Melissa, and installed a 160GB + 250GB pair... now she's a kick ass vid editing machine (still needs new EVERYTHING). Captured vids from K&S, skiing and some other random stuff. Going to go through my tapes... i vaguely remember recording a cooking video... i think i'll start editing this... 'cos i feel like it, hehe... lavidas! once again, it will be a gameless machine... no time or energy for games now... too much creativity output required, but insufficient input... need INPUT...

i really wanna record a music video.. but taht means that i'll need a person to film me... and i dun trust anybody to film me at this point of time... hmm

in process of clearing out my old shit from my old HDDs.. came across some interesting scripts i wrote... rather interesting... i did have lotsa ideas... looked through my old blog too... founda VERY interesting entry...

Thursday, September 16 2004 11:54:20
Hmm... lotsa ideas for life

Idea 1 : Go to Classes consistently

Idea 2 : Study

Idea 3 : Forget Ideas 1, 2, they are stupid.

Now, isn't that so true? haha...

Oh well.. gotta get back to work.... ciao now...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-13T12:13:00.000+10:00

i know the answer to why i've been feeling rather crappy, and my brain so mulshy... I am sick... called in to pull a sickie, and the office lady was like... "I think you're the one that brought in the virus that knocked myself and mario out..." and i'm like "WTF? Me? but i only recently gave in to the battle... perhaps i was indeed down with somethign but my lavidian personality just refused to give up.

yesterday's asam laksa was good... considering i had sugar and tumeric, but FORGOT TO PUT THEM BOTH IN!!! what an idiot... still... it tasted nice. I think i am gifted with the skill of creation... creating gourmet delights as well as creative expressions. My throat hurts now - no more singing :(.

Maybe... maybe it's the clarinet... i am allergic to my BLACK STICK... maybe i'm allergic to girls? or perhaps just allergic to myself... haha...

anwiays, back to the dinner... was a sweet one, with Dorothy, Liz and Sam. caught up, and discovered that Sam lives just next door... literally... was nice... and they were not so noisy as my other bunches... so was rather swell... next dinner is on monday... Belldy x2 + Charissa / Bob + Dorothy + Me + Maybe One more? Hmm.. gotta decide who that maybe one more is... still have time... whatever the case.. it'll be a sweet-sour conglomeration of indonesian and western flavours of a slightly viscous consistancy Mee Goreng.. yummy, i'm drooling now... SERIOUSLY! So who will be the lucky one? dunno... but the focal point of that dinner will be the starting of a musical group - of which i may play a pivotal driving role IF the union authorizes it. ultimate lavidian, Directory Advisor, Noname Music Group, Melbourne Uni...

is is 1215 and i'm lying in bed with a throbbing head and an aching throat... i feel like crap, literally... can't play bad later - dun wanna aggrevate anything. Sam is cooking curry 2nite... yummy... but probably only half the standard of a lavidian curry.... OOOOH that reminds me... RENDANG!!!! that'll be after my mee goreng... the next dish after.... Who else will be lucky to receive my gifts of joy prepared by my talented phalanges? i wanna go to work, but i fear i can't concentrate... and i've already slept for ALMOST 12 hours... gosh.. and i still feel like sleeping... Now i know how Lil feels... poor thing, lil, get well soon.

Now, let's delve into some lavidian theology... I am a guy... i like girls... but girls are BORING... seriously... after my month of analysis, i realised that girls are BORING... but wait... guys are too (except me, of course)... what happened to dreams? what happened to goals? why to ppl nowadays only want to climb the corporate ladder to success? 'cos they are STOOPID? or maybe that's cause society has brainwashed us to believing that professional success begats happiness? I am happy... although my illness unables me to appear more so, but i am happy (7.6/10)... fine, i'm generally happy... haha... to get to the holy grail of happiness, i need 3 things... a new church FAST, to meet just 1 really interesting girl (like i said girls are BORING, but i'm sure there's one jewel hidden somewhere, and I dun even need to chase her or get her... just need 1 interesting person to inspire more creativity within)... what else... um, more time to embrace passions... currently, my tight schedule makes it impossible to take time out and relax... still, i shall persevere... you know what, i feel like sleeping AGAIN...

NO... before i go a quick recipe of the assam laksa i made...

Noodles
White or Yellow thick noodles to your fancy.. boil as much as you need.

The Magical Assam Laksa
Important ingredients are
1. Tamarind paste
2. Lemongrass
3. galangal
4. lots of onions / shallots
5. turmeric
6. sugar, salt
7. mint leaves
8.lime leaves
9. tuna
10.pineapples
11. cucumber
12.balachan
13. shrimps

Step 1 Dice and grind 1,2,3,4,5,7,8,12,13 and add to a boiling mixture... the most important part of assam laksa is the tamarind... that's the base of the stock... the correct way to boil tamarind is to soak the tamarind paste in hot water then use the hot water... the lazy way ( hot i did it) is to throw the tamarind directly into the pot. The lemongrass and galangal and the leaves have to be well grounded, or chopped up and thrown into a fish bag.

For those who dunno, a fish bag is a bag in which you put in fish bones to boil to make fish stock, i use it to boil spices and retrieve flavours while keeping the hard non-edibles out of the main soup.

Step 2.
when the soup thingy boils, add in tuna... salt and sugar to taste, and add more tamarind to increase sourness...

Step 3. when done, serve noodles in a bowl and pour assam laksa over it. put chopped mint leaves, cucumbers and pineapples to garnish.

Step 4. Make sure you are NOT an idiot and forget any ingredients... there are more ingredients like ginger flower... but i can't find in melbourne... :(

Oh well... it was still nice...

I feel groggy...

haha... my heart longs, it pines, it finds...

i go to sleep...

i miss you... you know who you are... if you dun think you're it... that means you're not it...

i am the ultimate lavidian.

2006-09-12T15:38:00.000+10:00

whatta life...

Sunbury was freeezing.. i literally could NOT get up on monday morning... 'cos it was just too freezing. dad had to switch on the heater before i could even manage to poke a limb out of the blanket. I'm feeling nauseous now... been shivering, despite taking hot drinks, and my colleagues telling me that it's not particularly cold today... i do remember watching a movie with doris last nite, and then i totally dozed off... which is weird, considering i hardly do that... hmm... i truly must be sick.

Yest had dinner wif Kiffy... mexican... fantastic food... inspired to cook teh followign dishes... my signature Char Koey Teow, Mee Goreng, Tang Yuen, Roti, salmone pasta... Tonite i'm doing assam laksa.. and i dun have lime... hmm... do i really need it? no... i'll be fine... *although i feel like crap today... seriously... i think i have to call a sickie tomorrow, hmm...

Am seriously looking forward to dinner... am very intrigued how i'm going to whip up a kick-arse assam laksa, clear my room in a very limited time... *tick tock*... i wanna go home and sleep...

work was kewl.. we played pirates at lunch time today... 5 of us took over the convention room and started fighting and grabbing treasure... was fun... gosh i want more boats...

aniways, gotta go for now... got work to do and a dinner to meditate on...

ciao...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-10T21:47:00.000+10:00

i am in sunbury.

the wk ended off in a blast... with the recording of Songalapatee, the harmornic composition of "I believe"... had a SUPER DUPER rest on sat... body is now refreshed, and brain no longer mulsh.. hhaa...

Saturday... me, brian, yx, les went to play indoor soccer... les was on fire... and i had 2 good chances, but missed :-( i guess me needs to train a bit more... hha...a Man Utd is on a roll!!! 4 wins in 4... you can't get better than that! after that we had lunch, and i went home to rest.. gosh, i was soo brain mulshed... horrendous... but now, brain is back to normal... which is kewl.

today, dad came by, we hung out a bit, bought groceries, then i went back to sunbury. is FREEZING here... gosh, i miss my nice warm *bed-recording studio... in vic mart, we bought 7.2kg of seasoned lamb ribs for $10... SUPER DUPER cheap... and superduper delactabilishious!! had a nap...

my din tomorrow cancelled on me... and i'm NOT thrilled at all... if you wanna cancel at least gime a coupla days to organise something else... i am NOT thrilled... aniways, i'll be having dinner with kat.. methinks - mexicano... i've got a craving...

tomorrow i'll have to purchase the ingredients for the assam laksa... :) i think it'l be swell... lalala... c'est la vie. i'm starting to drool just thinking about it... methinks i'll add a twinge of mint and perhaps thyme? it'll be interesting...

then weds... badminton... then thurs... i think i should rest... but maybe pam...
hmmm... friday is gonna be a killer... lelele... going for the city life youth camp...

aniways, i gtg... will report back,

but whatever the case,

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-06T11:09:00.000+10:00

The noblest pleasure is the joy of understanding - Leonardo da Vinci

I do not understand... that it mean that i am not experiencing pleasure?

He was a genius, totally eccentric, but a genius non-the less... the following 2 works are his best... the Vitruvian Man, and the Mona Lisa... each demonstrating different essences within himself... and varying concepts of perpetualization. What is perpetualization?? It is the perpetual realization of being, of life around you.

Vitruvius was a Roman architect, who studied the proportions of the human body, and the Vitruvian man was but a study of this. In the included picture, da Vinci writes his notes about his analysis on the human form in mirror writing. Symbolic? Absolutely... just like the mathematical irrational golden proportional number phi, known by Renaissance artists as the 'Divine Proportion'. Another Leonardo (Another coincidence?), Leonardo Fibonacci determined that the ratio of two successive numbers in the Fibonacci series (0,1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34...) approximates this phi. It also converges on phi for greater iterations in the series... phi is approximately 1.618033988749895.

So basically, we have 2 Leonardos analysing this golden number... what is the significance of this? let's see.. phi is a number that crops up in many places in art, music, etc... Claude Debussy used it explicitly in his music, and Le Corbusier in his architecture. Also, it is possible the the Greek Parthenon, the Great Pyramid of Khufu and EVEN the Mona Lisa were influenced by this divine proportion. Pictures or even rectangles were proved to be more pleasing if they utilise this golden ratio, demonstrated by psychological tests performed by Gustav Fechner in the 19th century.

FACT or FICTION??

i leave it up to you to decide... why is Mona Lisa considered one of the best paintings ever? the use of golden ratios perhaps... This ratio is embodied within nature, seen as beauty and organisation within existance... the basic proof of a higher existance... we were made... this is but the evidenciary proof.

"I am inspired, and will continute my journey of discovery... i am the ultimate lavidian" - ultimateLavidian

2006-09-06T00:06:00.000+10:00

define: mess... the state my mind is in...

cause: too much happening in the last few days... brain's a mulsh... i need a BREAK!! did i ever expect things to heat up so quickly? NO! but then again, why am i complaining? haaa.... i have no clue... i have resigned to the fact that

1. i am crazee
2. i am mad
3. i am insane
4. i am eccentric

haha... but i love myself... i look around at all the boring ppl out there... and thank God for the gift of being me... i would never ever want to be somebody else... why would i wanna be less than who i am now? sometimes i really envy others... they get to know someone like me... it's not fair... why can't i meet somebody like me? why can't i have the priveldge of being friends with a kewl person *** i think i'm going nutz...

which is a good thing... most of the most creative artists out there are insane or at least eccentric... and ppl have confirmed that i am at least 3 out of the 4, so... i guess i'm close to it, right? i'm told that insanity and pure genius are located on the same quadrant... i just realised taht i have a deadline this sunday... *baka... what else is there????? ime is clicking away... i can't wait for my holiday... :( then i can meet my sg chix and my my chix... ahhh... i am going crazee again... i need to CUT DOWN! as activities are starting to drain my energies... my delicate brain needs cultivation not over invigoration.. which is what is currently happening....

i really should sleep.. tomorrow is a big day... i'm exhausted, but my brain can't stop... maybe i need professional help... maybe i need more than that... hmm, oh well...

i know what i need... i need time out!!!! hehe...

well, i know for sure i'll get the next 7 hours ALL TO MYSELF... and whoever i dream about... yes, it could be you for all you know... so... yeah... ciao babe....

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-05T14:42:00.000+10:00

a quick update... yest had a great dinner... great food... and enuf humour to last me an eternity... Kiffy, Rox and En came over for bakuteh... and we had a coupla laughs. then dropped off some at red's, along wif other stuff... did a drive around thingy and then headed home for the one thing i love most in the world... sleep... Shakespeare does say it best, "Sleep is nature's second course," and for all your literary idiots out there... the second course refers to the main course, with the first being the entree. Hence, what he's saying is that sleep is the most important part of a person's life... a theory which i absolutely agree and adhere to. Sleep... with which you have less time for other things, without which you have less energy for other things... hmm...

aniways, a quick update on the status of my studio. More detailed information to be included maybe in the next coupla days... like i said... maybe.

my studio
Microphone system set up and is ready for recording... am considering getting a pre-amp... hmm...
Still waiting for new keyboard stock to come in, so i can get my keyboard from the shop and start recording! whee!
Clarinet recording will be tested tonite - going to record some kewl funky bendy stuff...
Alto sax in process of acquiring.
hmm... need to set up my video cam too... so it'll be the ultimate studio... AV recording studio...

is it worth it? oh yeah... DUH!#@@

haha... and yest bumped into sally and lynn... haha... two hot chix... the ironic syncapation is that as i start losing interest in girls, more and more keep popping up... what can i say? life is such... i'm already in the process of planning my next um... phase 3 may be inititialised b4 the 2 wks is up... i'm on fire...

'cos...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-09-04T13:14:00.000+10:00

TIME FLIES...

I have been so insanely bz that i have had no time to update this blog... maybe i should consider cancelling it... nah... i'll persevere...

Last week in perspective... thurs cooked kiwi infused seared chicken and condensed milk brocolli + mushrooms... no mood to give recipe details now.. haha...

then there was thurs, and a mental overload... there was a major bug at work that i had to fix - however, i had a dinner planned... saz, rach, winnie and sister came over... unfortunately... after that, i had to plough through my work - finished at around 330 am, but at least ironed out the bug. next day, we delivered and presented dev to client, who seemed pleased, which was good.

friday nite... shopping!!! haha... bought a mike stand for my mike (now, my room looks like a real studio)... and ordered a Yamaha keyboard. pretty pricey... but i am, therefore i get what i want (within reason). Set up the mike... slacked, and rested... brain was in a gruelish state. saturday, woke up EARLY at 8am... went to play futsal... was swell... despite my slip and fall, brining the world crashing down on top of me... really felt the repercussions on the body after that, but still, haha... FUTSAL...

Am considering to join a particular church camp in 2 wks...

After futsal, went to buy $60 worth of meat... for my cooking endeavours... brain is mulsh at this point, no energy left... need to recuperate...

Then, Mich's bdae - went to Dragon Boat... great food, great ppl, swell time. Then, cell... um... yah... there is a possibility that could happen... a dire distinctive possibility.. but we'll see... am i too wild to lead a christian group? perhaps... but oh well...

then nite... cammie's kidnapping b-dae surprise... absolutely stunning... they did a great job of planning it... with fluffy kinky handcuffs, blindfold and all... she was soo um... inriguing... haha... ended up at carlton gardens with sweet candles on the floor - absolutely stunning... but still, a rather standard surprise... I still dun understand... why celebrate 1 year closer to death?

aniways... got my blades back, rested... sunday, went to AOG with sis... was swell... was about 40 days - ministry. i started thinking about my own ministry, and how i had lost my focus... my drive... i need a new church.... and i need it soon!! maybe that camp will be a good idea for me to discover an area i can impact... after all i am the lavidian... where else can you find one such as me?

lunch was with Kiffy, Belldy and Roxy. Sucky food, but at least i'm still alive. then bumped into Jamie L., had coffee, talked about his Aussie Army experience... Intriguing... and encouraging in a certain way. Bought some stuff at asian groceries, walked home, and napped ( my neck was still hurting like crazeee). Slept and slept... then Rach came to borrow my camera... gave her a quickie lesson - hope she doesn't fumble under the pressure in europe (3wks among some of the most classical architectures and brilliance)... how i wish i went too... *dreamy look* --- OKIE... back to reality... i have a dream.. i will pursue... i can't wait for my keyboard to arrive... then i'll rerecord eternal sunshine, and all my other songs... before embarking on a new set of songs... i wanna vid. them up too... but how? need inspiration... still slightly lacking, last wk due to occurances, insp level dropped by 7% to 78%... need to keep pushing it upupupup!!

then vid. rach doing some rather stoopid stuff... how stoopid? um... abso-stunning-lutely... how stoopid can a person get? haha... lavidian extremity... intrepid intrigue.

she left. i started work on the dinner today ... then realised i was still LACKIGN in both equipment and ingredients... haha... but still started the initial cooking process... BAKUTEH.. simple, easy, but then again.. i'm super lz now... no NRG for anything at all... need rest... bad... hmm... super lz 'coz i'm super bz? so no mood / NRG for anythign else...

still... Tim is leaving back to MY for a while... gonna miss that guy... but in a month he'll be back, and we'll attempt to launch a pokernite... made fish pasta for dinner yest... started practicing my old songs again... wow... deja vu... the feeling of old, the rendezvous with memory lane... my new conceptual songs are nice... but i've been unable to continue after the first verse...

today... work is alrite, am still feeling quesy... am wondering... what if what could be is? then i realise what is is simply a manifestation of thoughts in actions.

Another random thought - relationships - To get who you want, is to be who you want to want you to be. hmm...

am i blabbering so much that NOBODY understands... hahaa... too bad then...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-08-29T09:50:00.000+10:00

steak with blue cheese sauce... yummilicious... even more impressive when i was the one who put the recipe together, and executed the preparation meticulously and perfectly (of course after some research on the internet)... it was the perfect meal to acknowledge my return to the world... my return to my life.

the recipe is divided into two parts, 1. the meat, 2. the sauce...

1. the meat

preparation
What's important is the perfect cut of the meat... the better the meat the tastier the steak. The night before cooking it, put salt and crushed pepper on both sides for 5 mins then rinse the steak. This process is to lightly season it to give it some taste, and extract some of the juices to the surface of the steak. Do Not leave the pepper and salt on the steak overnite, as it will dry the steak too much. Cover the rinsed steak with gladwrap to lock in the flavour and juices.

cooking
There are 2 basic requirements to cook the perfect steak... heat and butter. that is it. ensure the pan is VERY VERY VERY hot, the hotter, the better the steak. butter the pan, and start cooking it. Now this part requires experience... you can only cook each side once to prevent over dry the steak. Each time you turn it, juice is lost... to prevent the juice-loss, you only flip each steak once. Remove the steaks, and reduce the heat on the pan... it's time to cook the sauce

2. the sauce

preparation
The primary ingredient is of course blue cheese (*duh!*). The mixing ingredient is wine. I like red wine in cooking so i'll be using red wine. depending on the amount of cheese... 280g of blue - you need about 5 tbs of wine. stir and mix, add butter and milk to thicken the consistency. add a dash of pepper, parsley and chives. you can add other cheeses to improve the cheesiness of the sauce. blue cheese has a nice aromatic smell, but is not cheesy enough. use parmeson, chedder, basically anything.

cooking
This is as simple as it gets. stir in the mixture into the pan in step one. the existing steak juices mix perfectly with the wine and cheese mixture, keep stirring until consistency is reached throughout the mixture.

3. bon appetite
Now the best part.. to consume it... cut a slice of steak, marvel at the skill at which it was cooked (if you were me), then dip it into the sauce... chew it... gaze hazily at your date... 'cos for that split second, you will forget you were with someone, you just went to heaven and returned... now, for that next bite... yummilicious!

haha... it was good... so said the two wonderful tasters... dorothy and patricia...

next on my list... 3 dinners in the course of the next 1 week (incl today)...

tonite... valerie - pan seared chicken
thurs... rachel and gang - curry laksa
next mon... kristy and gang - bak kut teh

now... don't you wish you knew me?

i am...

i am the ultimateLavidian

2006-08-28T11:30:00.000+10:00

Has it already been a week since my last post? oh yeah... it has been... it's been a bzbz week, finally completing the project that dragged on for quite a bit due to performance issues. now on to the next project... a relatively short and simple one, i reckon. had a job opportunity come by, asked for 70k... they said okie, but it's at Mount Waverley, and will take me 1 hr to get to work... at my current stage in life, i can't be stuffed... my time is more impt...

then saturday came and went... was a great ski trip... snowboarding on mt buller.. for the first time in aussie, and first time on the snowboard... (my prior experience was on skis at Queenstown in NZ)... the initial phase was relatively tough... could not control it at all, but towards the end, once i got a hang of it, we had to leave :-(

had dinner at chom chom, then headed home for a much needed rest. And I watched prison break season 2 ep 1!!! it's out!!!! finally!

Come sunday, was a restful day of reflection and recollection, titan quest and heroes 4 (it finally worked after i updated my video driver). Timmy asked Dorothy and me over for dinner, was swell, roast beef with vegies and mash.

Got home, started planning the week... let's see... dinner with patricia today... steak with blue cheese sauce, topped with grilled pumpkin and mushrooms... tomorrow meeting valerie for din... probably pizza... weds - bad, thurs - maybe another dinner... we'll see how... friday... lunch with valerie at yu-u. nothign for dinner... sat, blading, then carly's thingy... sunday... maybe i'll go church? so yah... that's my 1st week in phase 2...

life is turning... we'll see how much further things can go... rachel, my agent is leavign aussie for a couple to go europe... i'm sad... but once she returns, i'm going to kick phase 3 into action...

sounds like a kewl week, with enuf planned for me to be bz... and i so have to study....

i am the ultimateLavidian

2006-08-22T13:17:00.000+10:00

An indeterminate update regarding the move. No pictures yet... but once all is in order i'll start posting stuff up. kewl? kewl...

Now, a summary of the great return to civilization...

Starting on friday
7pm got home, slacked...
9pm still slackin...
11 pm... still slacking...
1130 pm... starting to worry about the move
12am... starting to pack...
2am... still packing...
4am... packing... wondering when will it end...
430am... packing... realising that this is just hte beginning
5am... sleep
8am... awake... start loading the car
9am... gone to pick up the 2tonne truck...
920... realised we did not have the home keys... had to arrange for an acrobatic maneuvre to retrieve the spare one
10am... arrived at dorothys', put her bed in truck
11am... at raymond's, loaded my new bed, and ate his mums' bahkwa... yummy...
12pm... back at my place loading all the crap...
1pm... just finished loading... now to the city
2pm... the arrival... the unloading...
3pm... completion of the unloading... off to good guys to buy washing machine and fridge
4pm... bought the fridge and off to pick it up
430... back to the resort (my resort)
530... off to dinner at supper inn, had some good food (can't remember now, but it was nice... and expensive).
7pm... back to my new place... started unpacking more and slacking...
9pm off to get more of dorothy's stuff....
11pm at dorothy's.... i fell asleep...
12am... still asleep...
1am... still asleep... hey, i am home already... start unpacking
3am... back to sleep
9am... dorothy decided we had to go get stuff...
10am... reject shop
11am... bigW
12pm... IGA
1pm... back home, yay!
2pm... off to start work on my 40% assignment....
ASSIGNMENT ALL THE WAY TILL...
12am.. submitted assignment
1215... missed the last tram... started walking back...
1am... home sweet home...

HAHA!!! now, i can walk home from the city!

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-08-18T17:14:00.000+10:00

Countdown... 16 hrs to my big move.

the start of something special, the beginning of the end of the beginning of life.

Today in essence was a relaxing day, prototyping excel reporting systems for an access database. Developed kewl dynamic graphs and charts, etc...

i am now an ado connection pro... looking forward to leveling up my titan quest character tonite, after my move, i may start multiplaying titan quest with timothy... timothy has 3 characters already, whoa.. and is already at the end of epic... i must strive to catch up...

Have planned the peeps to assist, now tonite is the packing. I dun have to pack EVERYTHING up, so that should be swell... just gotta pack what i want / need... for the pursuit of my dreams and desires... i shall persevere.

come monday, it'll be a mad rush at work, gotta improve performance of a linked fe-be access db system by using batch files and ado connection.

whatever the case, i shall treasure the new experiences in my new environment as i strive to build my lavidian legacy...

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-08-17T20:40:00.000+10:00

Tick, tick, tick... time ticks by, time is the only thing that cannot be created, that cannot be bought. Everybody is given equal amounts. What we do with it is what makes the difference. The pursuit for excellence is only secondary to one's appreciation for time. Dedication to success requires the maximising of situational currency.

I have to start preparing for my 40% assignment soon... will i die and perish for eternity? Perhaps... perhaps i am just not prepared for the level of commitment required.

Just returned to my place in the middle of nowhere, completed titan quest normal level. I think i'm done with the game. Gotta start preparing for the huge move too... but we'll see how it goes. I realise what it is that i miss... i miss the people who have impacted my life.. the people who have taught me how to live my life the way i want to... the friends of yesteryear... i miss you all like crazee. but as time passes, and ticks away, the only option left is to embrace the future. I will visit some of you end of the year...

On another seperate note: What is the essence of relationships? Why is i that >75% of all relationships fail? Why is it that i get sooo bored of people so easily? is there any person out there who is able to intrigue me? maybe... perhaps...

just paid gas bill... sheesh, 160 for 2 months, it's shazamblogous.... but once i have completed the move, i can get to wash my hands off of this place and no longer bear all these costs...

i am soooo looking forward to life after this weekend....

i am the ultimate lavidian

2006-08-17T13:17:00.000+10:00

had a reflective time yest. Confronted the issue at hand regarding the paradigm shift... or should i call it the paradigm return... the flight back to civilization and sanity. am hooked on what i deem one of the best games ever, along morrowind, oblivion, diablo ii, titan quest has earned its place in the domain of the elite. I am hooked on it, developing my Conquerer character is exciting, considering the immense configurability of the game.

Other news, am ready for my very exciting move... this saturday is the day everything will fall into place.

Inspirational levels have reached a new 4 month peak, which is rather exciting, and seems rather bullish at this stage.

Yesterday at work, around 3pm, there was a flood of issues regarding two projects that i am currently involved in. I don't like problems, but it does make life all the more exciting, considering that the opposite would be a dire monotonous existance.

I am not looking forward to tonite as i desperately have to start work on my final 40% assignment due sunday. Friday i have to pack up, and sat i have to move. Do i have time? am i able to weather this storm? Of course... after all, i am the ultimate lavidian.

2006-08-16T11:26:00.000+10:00

"Time is everlasting; everything is relative - Anonymous"

With that, a new dawn awaits, a new tomorrow beckons, a new life, a new becoming.

As the clock ticks away, and time passes, the nondescript hundrum of everyday life, finally the bright light at the end of the tunnel beckons. Finally, i will return to the life that i deserve, to embrace the lifestyle that i have pined for and missed.

It is confirmed, all is set, the plans are all laid out. This saturday is the renewing of the spirit, the rekindling of the fire, the rebirth of the soul, the rise of the phoenix... finally i will live my destiny, as the ultimate lavidian.

As this is the utopian beginning, the start of my idealistic dream, this blog will be henceforth my chronicle... my lavidian chronicle. however, i will remain discrete... there will be no real names or identities revealed...

i am the ultimate lavidian